jinghui.

byebye!

2009-09-08T11:01:00.006+08:00

hello people. :) will be switching permanently to livejournal to blog. so much easier to upload photos there. plus no bugs! :D

will be keeping this blog for a long time to come though, for links and if there is a need to blog here agn. :D plus i really like the songs and stitch cursor. :D and of cos there are so many memories here, be it bitter or sweet or simply plain nonsense. whole five years! :) how can i bear to delete this blog. :) eitherway, see you at livejournal! :)

-jinghui-

livejournal.

2009-08-31T15:15:00.002+08:00

blogged at livejournal instead. i'm officially pissed with blogger.

-jinghui-

TSK.

2009-08-27T16:22:00.004+08:00

hmph, season 6 of so you think you can dance is coming out at US already on 9 sep!!!!!!!!! ): so unfair :( :( :( singapore haven even show season 4 :( hmph!!!

bleah back to studying. must do well! :) im feeling loved. :)

-jinghui-

so you think you can dance :) for jenna and chang!

2009-08-25T21:16:00.004+08:00

Katee and Joshua- No air. so you think you can dance season 4

fantastic- i cried watching the dance. especially liked the part whr katee read the letter, and when she wore the jacket joshua took off. v touching!

chelsie and mark- Keep bleeding. season4.

one of the heart wrenching pieces i love. really shows how we modern people tend to get so caught up in the rat race and forget our loved ones. something i'll try nvr ever to do.

travis and heidi- calling you. season 1.

one of the most poignant dances ever by mia michaels. one of my fav, naturally. (: amazing.

neil and sabra- sweet dreams. season 3.

ah this is so different! one of the most enjoying dance ever :D look at the techniques, the sleek movements and the entire fast paced motions of it all! sabra won the title, btw. amazing dancer :D loved the handshake!!

pasha and lacey- season 3.

hahaha this dance is enjoyable, really funny. hahaha. :D

ok enough for now. there's alot other dances i love, but thats all for now. back t studying. :) i hope season 4 comes t singapore soon. season 5 alrdy over in US :( :( :(

and jenna, chang, here you go! hahaha.

disclaimer: all videos belong to the respective owners from youtube. i do not own any of these. :)

-jinghui-

fruitful study day!

2009-08-23T15:47:00.005+08:00

now time is passing so fast it's rly scary :\ and its like a routine everyday! just keep studying only. grrrr. well at least my motivational factors are still keeping me going. :)

today is a fruitful study day! its damn rare i get t stay home and mug. can we like petition that instead of truncated timetable, they let us be independent and stay home t study and go school if we want to consult teachers? :\ i think truncated is useless. esp thurs. wtf, gp lectures are still on. they are the most useless thing ever i swear. tutorials are much better luh. grr. if only the school will leave us alone. :( sigh. im very tempted to.......... hahaha. ling, im really considering the option! :) and eh speaking of ling, she forever nvr reply one -.-" like drop into the ocean or sth.

okay prelims in about a week's time and im starting to freak out. i really dont wanna fail anymore! its damn annoying :( ok on the bright side, i talked to shina and yay apparently to get into NIE it's just the interview that is v impt. but still i probably need DECENT grades = not getting "U"s like im doing now!!! hmph. haiyo.

and hmph, i dont like misunderstandings. it's common, but i hate it. i realise how fragile human relationships are, how, with a wrong step, it leads to the souring of relationships. bleah. thats why i always believe EQ is more impt that IQ. oh well, but everybody is good at sth, yes? im quite glad i fall into the EQ portion though my IQ is pretty low, as reflected by my grades now -.-" hahahahha.

ok things are still pretty cheerful for me now. baby's been really funny and supportive, and hahah he painted my nails for me! no matter how terrible it looks, the concentrated look on his face when he painted it made me feel all warm and fuzzy. and i think my toenails are v v pretty now. :)

okay back to my little world of mugging. :) yay i finally added the swan princess song "far longer than forever" to my blog :D and hehehe ayaka's okaeri! :) and LOOK AT THE CURSOR ISNT IT ADORABLE HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. :D makes me v v happy! dancing lilo and stitch! :)

NIE! :)

-jinghui-

tests, extra lessons, tests, extra lessons...

2009-08-14T22:33:00.004+08:00

its like my mantra now. i need to study harder. im studying hard, but there are billions out there studying even harder than i am. i need to study harder. im studying hard...

it reminds me of BNW conditioning. :\ okay never mind. now everyday i have t stay back for either extra lessons or tests. how cheerful. hmph.

but hehehe, yesterday baby surprised me by picking me up after my GP extra lesson at 630pm. :) a little gesture but it meant alot to me, esp after being so drained and everything. :) <3 teehee. i love you. :)

there's so much to do, so much to study! can they stop giving us hw so we can study?! hmph, so annoying. i think im starting to really freak and stress out alrdy. :\ frankly, im really still quite worried and scared. although everyone say even if prelims fail, A's can do well. although everyone say im improving... but im not convinced. no matter how hard i try nothing is happening. :( WHY!? :( i failed last year's math paper. i look through econ and geog A level '08 paper, i nearly finished the whole tub of haagen dazs. :\ sigh. sooner or later, i'll be screaming vulgarities at the top of my lungs. in a civilised way, of course.

its nt even prelims and im so fucking pent up and stressed. no wonder ppl say this will be worst time of everybody's lives. :( damn it.

-jinghui-

what a day; reflection day.

2009-08-12T20:38:00.003+08:00

2 tests today, drained alrdy.

great. my upstairs neighbour is drilling at like, 8pm plus at night. sigh. i swear singaporeans dont have social awareness.

today is one of those days i reflect alot. i dont this kinda day, they make me emo. a little. :\ but i decided, not to think about it and let things go its own way. im tired alrdy, these kinda stuff are the last thing i wan on my mind. it wil pass, and all of us will go on with our own lives anyway. see ok it ends on sucha melancholy note. :\ sigh.

thank goodness for baby. <3 i miss you darling :( :( :(

ok off to study.

-jinghui-

23 more days.

2009-08-10T21:33:00.004+08:00

23 more days to my second last lap. i can do it! :) :) :)

many many days passed since i last blogged. there's nth much to blog about; its just tests, tests and more tests. study study study. bleah.

ok maybe except i went t watch fireworks with baby. :) din get a good spot and its crowded like crazy but its with baby :) hehe.and baby went for buffet with my parents at orchard cafe! yummy. :) and! today went to eat and eat with darling! 1st went crystal jade to eat xiao long bao, then jap restaurant at paragon "asaki" i think, to eat salmon, silver fish and soft shell crab! :) then we ate haagen dazs. hahahahhaa. :) and ooh i saw this cute polka dot inspired bag/pouch at kate spade; its even cuter than the red one i saw before! :) hehee. so so happy. :)

well other than that there's really nth much to blog. singapore's 3D suck, so i shant comment. UP was disappointing, shant comment either.

anyway. im not confident of myself cos im still failing everything. but im sure with hard work and constant prayers, things will work out. :) right? ... :\ ok for now i think i just need to work v hard now. (: geog is ok, ms johnson can help. math, i got my baby and i see myself improving a little. lit i just need to read more. gp i need to consolidate and practice. but econ..... :\ i really dont know, im at a loss. sigh. my teacher suck, and tuition doesnt seem to be helping either. :( im really at a loss, what should i do? :(

okay anyway off to do geog. dont have mood to do ath! bleah.

-jinghui-

3 tests.

2009-07-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

3 tests in a day is crazy. :( but at least it's over!

so tired nowadays. but at least, i see some grades slightly improving. :)

i will work hard! :) hope tmr's career and schloarship fair is useful.

i really like the kate spade pouch i saw. :( :( :( polka dots! :( ling would you like to buy it for me? :) hehehehe. X)

-jinghui-

oh it's back alrdy.

2009-07-26T22:12:00.001+08:00

went forum t see and did alot brain wrecking com stuff and finally work it. :) blogger is odd.

-jinghui-

blog is odd.

2009-07-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

blog is really weird now. i cant post properly cos all the buttons gone. maybe, i shall switch over to livejournal for good.

-jinghui-

sigh.

2009-07-15T20:27:00.002+08:00

sigh. i did badly this time round. :( like, really badly. 3 U, 1 D, 1 S. sigh. my math was kinda predicted, econs also. but geog and gp... sigh. idk what to say alrdy :(

i feel like crap. :(

-jinghui-

busted.

2009-07-13T17:44:00.003+08:00

i failed again. :( for like, the umpteen-th time. :( this is crap ok i feel like screaming and shrieking and crying and whatever i can do to release the frustration in me. :( :( :( maybe i didnt study hard enough. but i really studied harder than during promos. :( like alot harder alrdy. i stil dont see results :( its really demoralising and all. sigh.

quite positive i wil fail my lit and econ too. i hope i pass my gp, really. or else im failing like, EVERYTHING. :( ^%#@&$.

was relatively upset today after taking back my geog [which is like the first thing in the morning. sigh.] cos i failed. managed to control my emotions though. sigh. i studied so hard for it ok. sigh. i feel really tired and all. :\

i need to get back on track. but, how? :(

-jinghui-

time fly fly fly.

2009-07-10T22:10:00.005+08:00

time flies so fast ok! zzz.

so tired of studying and doing hw! :(

anyway i was doing hw halfway and i suddenly thought of a cartoon i watched when i was young: "the swan princess". ok the song reduced me to tears [again]. haha. gonna use it for my blog song! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZtqfYSN1QeQ&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axkBhgprnfU&NR=1

go listen. and if you can, watch the cartoon. one of the best cartoons ever; its so deeply etched in my mind. (: i can rmb it vivdly. and i think its one of the sweetest cartoons. :) i think it came out in 1994. so that means... i was 3 years old. hahaha. they gt series, but i only watched 2nd. i haven watch 3rd!!! ima go get all dvds after a's. i only have the tapes. hahaha. how fast technology progress.

ok i dont have mood to blog. off to study then tv time with daddy! :)

If I could break this spell
I'd run to him today
And somehow I know he's on his way to me
Derek, you and I were meant to be

Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here w/ me
Although we're far apart
Far longer than forever
As constant as a star I close my eyes and I am where you are

As sure as the dawn brings the sunrise
We've an unshakable bond
Destined to last for a lifetime and beyond
Far longer than forever ( far longer than forever)
I swear that I'll be true (I swear that I'll be true)
I've made an everlasting vowel to find a way to you
Far longer than forever
Like no love ever known
And w/ your love I'll never be alone
Far longer than forever
Much stronger than forever
And w/ your love i'll never be alone

-jinghui-

midyears is gone case.

2009-07-03T20:31:00.005+08:00

mid years are over. [thats a pun.] haha. gone case alrdy lah. but it shows i studied, but NOT enough. i have to work harder. :\ sigh! quite prepared t fail almost everything but i am going to make sure by prelims, it wont be like that.

anyway. nearly all papers screwed la. lit p1 i nth much t write. i think the day i stopped my hobby of reading due to lack of time was the day my lit started to deteriorate. lol. its quite bad now. sigh.

geog today made me disappointed in myself. i blanked out. :( like i know the EXACT page the answers can be found, but when i visualise the page, i cant remember the words. sigh. i think if i can memorise everything, i will be doing very well for geog. like tutorials i always can do well. why? cos i got notes. :( i understand the question you know, and i know how to answer, like the structure. it's just the content. sheesh. i need t study more!

i dont care if ppl call me nerd for these 4 months. haha i think im turning into one.

anyway. after today's paper, me chang and ling went to crystal jade to eat!!! :D so so yummy. hehehehhe. im turning them into xiao long bao lovers also so they can go eat with me. haha.

then chang went home as me and ling goes on our impt mission. [shopping. hahaha] i think chang would have died if she went with us today. we spend nearly an hour at Zara ok! LOL. but im damn damn happy with this cute sailor-like dress. it has POCKETS!!! i think i love all dresses with pockets. my hands are happy. :D hehehhe. i saw 2 other dresses i like but by then me and ling were tired from all the trying of clothes at Zara. so we decided t cont. shopping next week. heh.

met baby thereafter for dinner! cos ling has t go off for some party thing. bought cookies for him so that he wont go hungry later after bmt. hehe. :) i think mrs field's white choco is nicer than famous amos cos sweeter but overall i prefer famous amos. hmmm.

cant wait for papa t come home! i want ask him if can go malaysia on monday with baby and his parents. heheh.

ps: i think singapore seriously have alot of disgusting and sick men. they should like all do self-reflection ok. sick people.

-jinghui-

little secret!

2009-07-01T22:08:00.001+08:00

and teeheee had a totally silly moment with baby today due to my uncontrollable giggles.

the thought of it makes me... giggle. hahahaha.

-jinghui-

math [har har] and human geog.

2009-07-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

today was another tiring day! math and geog, :\ math was screwed w/o a doubt lah hahah. damn stupid ok i was v silly. i actually forgot binomial dont need mean and variance. haha, ok, go ahead and laugh cos i feel stupid also.

geog was ok i guess. but not confident, bcos tricky!!! :\ hmph. very tricky DRQs and questions are quite tricky also. but i can do all questions, except one essay thats 8 or 9 marks on global and primate city. so, i hope it wun be a bad fail/ can scrape through. :) but that also means.... physical geog wil be killer. crap.

which means i shouldnt even be here haha.

watched pride and prejudice today cos my silly baby went t rush t HMV to buy for me. :) how can i not watch it. hehe. and my silly boy, its ok that the Godiva choco drink ran out okay; i know that you love me and teng me alot alot and thats more than enough. :) hehe dont be so upset about it okay we can drink it next time!! hehehe. i love you. :D

-jinghui-

new hp.

2009-06-30T17:55:00.002+08:00

and oh i got a new line and hp. :) it's pretty samsung F480! hahah in pink smmore. (: so anyway i wil msn everyone, lost contacts in my old sim card anyway. aftr exams luh, that one v time consuming. meanwhile, i'll have 2 hps. (:

but those who know my new number sms t my new one ok.

-jinghui-

:(

2009-06-30T17:39:00.006+08:00

mid-years is screwed luh. :( although everyone [teachers, seniors, baby] keep telling me mids is the most difficult one and prelim/A levels wont be as bad, its VERY demoralising. :( i studied even harder than i did for my promos ok. sigh. quick run through the various papers taken so far.

Gp: paper 1[compo] was okay. about environment; "Trying to save the environment is a waste of time and money. Discuss." the scope was really wide so i had alot t write. hopefully i didnt go outta point.
paper 2 [compre] was the difficult one. KILLER i tell you.

"I look at the paper i know you all cannot do already." -Ms Johnson, after the GP paper.

we just groaned. hahahha. but i myself think its v difficult. i think for once, im screwin up my GP. sigh! to think i was improving. TSK. :(

Lit p4: one word. DIE. unseen is the one always pull marks up, essay is always the killer. guess what. this time both are just as bad!! omfg everyone was complaining like crazy after that. i was damn worried. sigh!!

"the myth and reality of an utopian is very different indeed." how true is this statement in light of the novel/ World state?

that was the essay question for lit p4. die alrdy lah. it was the simplest smmore ok. the rest dont even understand! haha. but yah. sigh. screwed.

today econs: just as bad. time is really short ok. case study was easier than essay, although a have 4 marks gone. careless; im really bad at exchange rate tsk. anyway. essay they din allow us t choose. :( came out market structure+mkt failure, and for macro economic growth. shit man i tell you. 4 questions [2 part a and 2 part b] i have 2 questions one and 1/2 page, the other two only abt half page. took v long to think. crappies i forgot abt my economic growth benefits and costs leh!!! :( sigh. but yeah, there was still a policy question which im keeping my fingers crossed will be ok. but otherwise, its more or less screwed as well.

so there. all the papers so far, all screwed. math tmr also screwed, im mugging for human geog today. please please please dont let me blank out tmr.

i think j2 is extremely stressful. and omfg it doesnt help that A's is four months away!!!!! D:

-jinghui-

ANGRY!

2009-06-26T22:48:00.003+08:00

so so damn angry ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

my hp is bonkers now cos
1. one key is spoilt cant press at all
2. one button FELL OUT
3. i cant connect

so, i went t like check out price of fixing it.

and this bastard at those stupid PUNY hp shops, gave me the wan dun wan face [dont wan business say lah] then say he must see. i tot he wan t open inside hp see. cos not like hp always hang or what mah.

you know what the asshole did. HE RESET EVERYTHING WITHOUT TELLING ME THAT ASSHOLE. ALL YM CONTACTS AND SMS GONE OK!!!!!!!!! bloody *********. i tell you i really felt like slapping him ok. wtf la. he din even ASK. asshole. whats even in his brain lah. i feel like saying really mean stuff here but i shall hold my tongue.

and ok i stereotype, but after far too many incidents, certain ppl give me far too bad impressions. its nt that i wan t stereotype. its just them, really.

i wish i can sue him ok. asshole.

but thank goodness for darling. i was really really upset and my silly boy went all the way t thomson to get me ritz apple strudel's puffs and eclair. and he made me really happy. :) v v happy. :) i love you baby. :D

so to whoever who sees this im VERY sure i dont have ur number so please sms me ur number. and DONT ask what happened. thanks. :)

and i want a new hp. NOW. no point in trying to fix this hp of mine alrdy.

-jinghui-

study marathon!

2009-06-26T12:18:00.003+08:00

been studying literally non stop for the past few days. :\ past few weeks gt study, but not as much cos gt rest like go school/out etc. very very tired now. i really hope can pass my geog, gp and lit. like really really. esp geog i think if i fail i'd cry or sth. studied geog like crazy ok. this week is like an ominous start till A's end ok. i can so foresee what's about to come. :( but i really want t do well! somehow, i think my study method is wrong but i cant figure out why and what. :(

eitherway, i think i need to force myself to be productive in the afternoon. im v productive at night when it comes t studying but in the afternoon.... ;\ sigh! oh well. oh tues i went t eat crystal jade xiao long bao with baby :D very yummy! stil craving a little. cant wait for next friday [i.e. last paper of mids!]!!! im gg out with ling to watch transformer [HER idea. hahaha. i nvr watch 1, so i kinda dunno what the fuss is about. maybe i'll like it after i watch it. :)] eat xiao long bao and SHOP!! :D retail therapy. hahaha.

and i really like the Samsung Jet phone!

isnt it pretty! and i think its better than the samsung phone alot ppl have, the F480. cos i tried it @ the roadshow at taka on sunday and its v sensitive t touch, unlike F480. :) ok i hope ppl buy soon so i can get feedback. hahaha. :D and i hope they come out in other colours soon! :) i really wanna get a new hp soon. :( my old hp is getting..old. :x

ok. off to study again. :\ tuition at 7pm ltr!

-jinghui-

happy daddy's day!

2009-06-20T22:16:00.003+08:00

it's daddy day tmr! hehehhee. which is like in 2 hrs time. :)

i think im v happy nowadays. :D although stressed and tired, but happy. hhehehe. although sth bad happened last sunday, i guess its a blessing in disguise cos what happened after tt made me felt warm and fuzzy. :) ppl always say only in times of crisis then true feelings are revealed. i couldnt agree more. :) felt really loved and all okay. :)

anyway. i went t sit singapore flyer w baby!!! its damn pretty ok teehee. :) and ok i know my blog has been devoid of photos and stuff but i promise after my mids i wil post ok. now v tired and lazy. :) and lychee martini SUCKS. :( :( :( i hate all these nonsense. i think i'll just stick to homemade barley made by baby's mum instead. really. :D

oooh and went sakae yst w meanie, deb, bao and hoho. alot of funny things happen ahhahaa :D bt as usual im damn lazy t blog. :x lol.

today went t kbox w papa and baby, then ate ichiban sushi. teehee. its nice t see them get along and all. :D and then went out with ling! guilty, but its finally damn shiok t shop properly, even just for 3 hrs + hahaha. we din even rest ok! and... SALE EVERYWHERE!!! :D bought 2 tops from mango, yay! :D heh. cheap too. :) and i wanna buy belt for baby from AX only t realise the one i chose is new arrival so no discount, nett price. -sigh- oh well. :) and i collected my $5 Robinson voucher!!! cos did surveys on mail moment yay :D hehehe.

okay off to study. :) more. sigh!

-jinghui-

13 june 2009

2009-06-14T08:42:00.005+08:00

:) it doesnt feel any diff to be 18. except the fact that baby's dad is :D that i can drink alrdy. LOL. probably the entire family is secretly pleased i can drive alrdy. hahahaha.

i think everyone is kinda moody and sianz nowadays. even i myself included. dont feel like doing ath much, just feel like resting and stoning. and its been VERY long since i had the adrenline feeling, like when i buy sth i like that excited feeling. this is bad, cos even though i got my camera, my oh so expensive pay by myself camera- i dont feel ath much. bad sign. as compared to in the past one teeny weeny penguin clip makes me so happy. uhoh. i myself know the moodswings im gg through. zzz. if only stress and exams were two mosquitos that keep sucking me blood- i'd love to PIAK! and kill both of them. i wont feel guilty i swear.

i think it's the stress [i cant find another cause.] and knowing A's just loomed a little closer and 1/2 of june "HOLIDAYS" just passed. :\ the thought of 3 major exams [mid years, prelims and A LEVEL] coming my way is really scary. i dont have ANY subjects that i can stand up and proudly say im confident in it. :( sigh. ok gonna mug hard for next two weeks alrdy. @ least need to pass mid years, yes? :(

okay maybe all these nonsense will pass once A's end.

anyway. the day i looked forward so much to passed just like that. grr. baby was so mean ok, my parents too!!! they all purposely dont say baby coming my house. im v surprised my mama let. hahaha. but early in the morning when my hair's stil messy and i was stil munching on my breakfast, baby said he's at my doorstep. ZOMG. hahahahhaa!! but it was a wonderful surprise! :D and guess what baby brought. a HUGE bdae card he [painstakingly] made himself, and a frigging HUGE stitch balloon!!!!! no wonder he sounded worried when i said ling bought me a balloon. hahahhaha. and my favourite mariott hotel raspberry ivory cake. :) yummy! hahhha. bleah i stil cant believe my parents and baby were together in same evil plan. but im really :D :D :D hehhehee.

anyway. the surprise was to play tennis cos baby bought me a really pretty baby pink tennis racquet!! :D baby next time dont put a surprise that's sports and requires SO much energy early in the morning when we're gg out after that ok. hahaha. was SO tired after all the running and shrieking and laughing ok! and so sweaty and sticky end up i went home to wash up. zzz. hahaha.

went shopping after that- completely futile. one of the worst shopping trips ever- there wasnt ath i like or whatever. i felt like a sulky tzuling totally. cos she's the one always sulking and whining and complaining when she doesnt buy ath when we go out usually, but im the one completely happy even when i dont buy ath usually cos window shopping is also fun. ok maybe it was just cos it was my bdae and i was really excited about shopping, but in the end nth to buy. i didnt buy ANYTHING at all ok. so coupled with being completely exhausted due to morning tennis fun and the day before alot stuff also, and futile shopping, i was so upset i totally had no mood to do ath! :(

im gonna boycott bugis for months to come. damn it. stupid place. i must be not thinking straight when i made the decision, i swear.

in the evening, went baby's house for steamboat. took 3 [yucky] sips of apparently expensive red wine. they taste the same to me, all so BITTER! too bitter for my liking. drank barley baby's mum made instead. :) :) so yummy i think i wanna learn from her! :) baby had another little surprise for me! which is sth i wont say here. hehehe. i think he'll be a little embarrassed cos everytime i press for the sound he'd hide. ahhahahahah. :D

thats about it. :) im so going orchard next week to shop to quell my shopping and yoghurt urges. why dont any shops have nice stuff! :( so upsetting. :( :(

ok gotta go prepare alrdy. meeting baby's family for dimsum at 10am. :) food!

-jinghui-

happy day(s)!

2009-06-12T22:06:00.005+08:00

hehehehe im 18 tmr! :D

today was a lovely day <3 here goes!

1. had lit lesson. half of the time, i wasnt really concentrating. [ps: ling you STILL din really tell me whole story! i want the FULL gossip ok girl.] dale actually stuffed present in locker!!! really really cute, it's a HUGE stitch paw with a baby stitch at the side heheheheh. v comfy leh, i will use it hehehhee. and i lost a hand-made STAR chang made. :( see la you, throw star for what!!! LOL. i want one more :( hahahha.

2. off i went t amk hub w chang to print photos for my ah ma birthday, and tighten my dress which is kinda weird now. bit too tight. maybe a reason for me t go slim down. chang got her free soya bean! :) i think my mail moment is great. hahahaha. and oh! i bought 3 new pairs of cute socks!!!!!!!! :D bunny, sheep and seal. teehee.

3. went mrt t wait for wanyi and met wanyi at platform! called chang and wanyi Tweddledee and Tweddledum {think Alice In Wonderland!} hehehehe. so funny. waited for ling!

4. ling surprised me with a twinklebell balloon! :D initially i guessed it was a balloon and tot i would prefer a stitch one but the twinklebell helium balloon was REALLY pretty! :D i really like it :D hehehehehehe so happy. although it really was a little embarrasing t carry it around :x

5. off we went to the place they refuse t tell me! its at dhoby gaut xchange, quite nice food! :D and ling gave me another present. a necklace from accessorize! :D v pretty too, i think it really suits. :) just what i needed too! hehehehe. shopping buddy knows me well enough! :D yay! [ling when are we gg shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

6. off we went t shop! :) love love love daiso :) only place i splurge i dont feel horrid hehehehe. bought a pretty photo frame for my ah ma bdae! hehehe. and a few other stuff :)

7. thereafter went wisma see wanyi prom dress. v pretty!!! now i think mine nt that pretty hmph. hehe. then shop a while and camwhore! :)

8. thereafter took train t woodlands t meet my parents and ahma for dinner :) v v nice hehehehe. happy!

so now im here, tired alrdy :) v v excited abt tmr too!!! hehehehehehe. happy days! im so excited abt the surprise baby's giving me. hmmm. hehehehe....

and a million thanks to dale, toufu and wanyi for all the pretty presents and day :) i love all the presents! teehee. <3>

-jinghui-

two more days!

2009-06-11T20:25:00.003+08:00

im turning 18!!! yay yay yay :D

okay hmmm. such a long time since i blogged! too many events happened, such a busy holiday! and worse of all i fell sick. grr. but am ok now! :D anyway. went ice skating with baby!!! ice skating was so tiring and the shoes hurt ok! hmph. but i can skate alrdy! haha :) quite fun luh hehe.

and i went to a dance performance with dale. details? see her blog. hahahha so darn lazy to blog. hmmm what else. ohhhhh baby had buffet with my family too! hehe. they love him to bits, i swear. :)

hmmm, and metta carnival! quite fun teehee. really cute, alot of children. :D :D :D hehehe. ok im really lazy t blog, but i finally played wii at ting's hse! v fun. hahahha the rabbit game v spastic but fun! :)

okay anyway today v fruitful! did geog notes at 7am. haha, finished 2 lectures!!! almost done okay dale, left 2 more lectures!!! :D and i went pc show today with baby :) quite a disappointment. baby brought me to the shop his family always buy IT stuff from, and i bought from there instead. :) so, hello canon ixus 95!!! hahahhaa yay! :) finally, a new camera!!!!

tomoro first bdae surprise! dale, ling and wanyi refuse t tell me ath. hmph. but we watching ghosts of ex-gf past yay!!! :D hehehehe. and oooooh baby's planning a surprise also!!!! aiyah!!! so excited but anxious ok hmph hmph. hehehehhee.

ok! off to study! :)

-jinghui-

i LOVE holidays!!

2009-05-31T20:42:00.005+08:00

I LOVE HOLIDAYS! :D

really, i do. cos i get to see baby often! and even though i have to mug, i feel at ease and nobody/nothing will bother me as i finally settle down to study. LOVE the feeling. :) and im REALLY happy i finally understand atmosphere properly!!! YAY :) now i just aimin to pass everything for midyears! :) just passing everything will make do, for now. :)

and to all my dear buddies, we'll get through this shit together ok! i'll share my notes and all with you. we'll study together. and we must chart our IMPROVEMENTS! :) we can do it, yes? :) i dont have to state who im referring to, yes? you guys shld know. i really wanna paste a smiley sticker. :( :( :(

ok anyway yst was lovely! :) daddy and baby, my 2 favourite men on earth, went kbox with me! :) teehee :D well next sat baby's gg buffet with my family. including my ah ma. hehehe. really excited cos its been some time since i went for a proper buffet!!! gonna like, go for buffets in holidays man. :\ i miss rendezvous and orchard hotel's. and plaza mkt cafe. yum yum. :)

there're so many movies i wanna watch! but ok, i shall limit myself to 3. must study! Night at museum2 with my daddy, UP with dale, and ghosts of ex-gf past on 12 june! :) so excited for my bdae, teehee.

okay off to study! tomoro will be another lovely day. :) hehehhehehhehe.

and my poor but brave tzuling, i hope you'll be okay fast fast! it's just subduction of "oceanic plate" only, anyway. ;) but really i dont think im THAT brave to go through it. but either way get well by 11june ok!!!!! >:\ we have a date!!!! hahahaha. love you!

-jinghui-

dilemma!!

2009-05-29T22:19:00.001+08:00

new hp, or new camera???

i rly cant decide!!! :( :( :( my hp is giving me lotsa troubles now. hmph. but i want a new camera too. my lumix at home is spoilt :(

-jinghui-

HOLIDAYS!!! :)

2009-05-29T13:41:00.004+08:00

teehee holidays are here! so happy happy. must study like crap, but at least i have TIME to study. how ironic. :)

there isnt much t blog abt and im tired. :\ just cant wait for my birthday ehhehehehehhehe. i'm gonna rest for 3 days in a row! so i shall mug alot for the rest of the days. :) im turning 18!! :) teehee. quite excited. :D and i really want a new camera. or maybe a new hp. idk, cant decide. :\ hate it when i cant load photos into the com even after dale gave me the wire. grrrrr. i think it's my hp. :( sigh! only one year you know. sheesh. and the buttons are spoiling. one died alrdy. so darn lazy t get it fixed. :x

oh well. ok off to study! :) i really want to pass my mids!

-jinghui-

retail therapy- extremely effective!

2009-05-22T22:08:00.003+08:00

ling is like, totally my shopping buddy i swear. so nice t shop with her cos the things we shop and see abt the same and she knows my taste and vice versa. so v fun t shop with her! and i can eat good food, cos only she wil wan t eat with me. :D yay yay yay. so happy. :D bought earrings from f21, v v pleased with it. :D and a shirt for baby from esprit. and stitch sweets. and MANY hairbands from fox. i tell you im a happy girl now. :D lets go shopping in home clothes soon ok toufu. :)

today had team dinner at ichiban sushi- had so much fun and til now my face v tired and sore cos we camwhored like CRAZY. really funny, i cant believe they took SO MANY UNGLAM PHOTOS OF ME AND REFUSE TO DELETE!!!!!!!!!! D: rly ugly ok i look like a total bimbo :x grrrrr. hahaha but i had so much fun ok. :) i think my clique in the team is rly v fun! :D

tmr envirofest, kinda regret taking it up cos v tired nowadays yah. :\ oh well, sign up le must do. plus it wil help my geog alot. :D revision. :) i miss my baby though :( sigh sigh sigh. june holidays so busy yet have study like mad. i have ALOT to catch up. :( sheesh. but there's many stuff i wanna do with baby too. :D hehehhee. one of which is study tgt of cos. :D even if i dun wan to, he'll probably make me. <3 hehehhee.

ok off t do some hw, then to bed. :D

-jinghui-

what a busy me!

2009-05-20T21:44:00.002+08:00

i swear, homework is killing me! D: leave me alone! i dont have the time t study like that, and i have alot t catch up with. grrrrrrrrrrrr. anyway. ive been a good girl cos ive been studying and doing hw alot. :D but tsk, today end up din get t play wii. sigh! :) another time SOON :D

on a very very happy note, baby gave me a surprise! :D he shipped over from japan a box of limited edition kitkat, and to top it off, a roll of cookies and cream mentos. :D :D :D i swear, at the rate he's feeding me im gonna grow fat. :) hehehehhehe. wil post the photos soon. rly too lazy and tired to plug in etc etc etc. and sort my files etc etc etc. haiyo!

and holidays r coming soon!!!!!!! yay yay. and my birthday! :D cant wait to turn 18, really. :D

ok off to bed! tired.

-jinghui-

zone out, period.

2009-05-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

i seem to be stoning alot nowadays, but i feel better after that. its like my way t destress. :) but of cos i get VERY annoyed when ppl disturb me while im stoning and zoning out. hahaha.

alot hw nowadays, v annoyed. cos i think my ocd getting worse, i need t like clear my hw before i feel at peace and calm. :x hahhaha. jenna says my ocd is worse than hers leh. sheesh. hahahahha. but really, hw v irritating cos i cant start studyin if i dont finish. eeeeeeyerh ok i think i need t plan.

i really need holidays, although it probably isnt a holiday. but i wont do much holiday hw if there's alot. i gt alot t catch up, hw isnt gonna help. i need time alone t study.

and my tuition increase t two times a week in holidays. :\ sigh!

and i've turned into a full-fledge mugger alrdy. studied in school with ben and ling today till 730pm after school. o_0 tmr gg library. oh man. hahahhahah :) i want t like, pass all my subjects for mids! really really. ok. maybe math...........................:x hahaha. math SUCK ok. stupid she keep adding lessons until breaks gone AND h1 subject only it has more tutorials and lectures than h2. :( which makes us hates it more!!!!

ok off t do hw. again. mr hue must STOP giving us unnecessary hw ok. v angry with him. give alrdy then say give wrong. WALAO. underhand means to get us t do work we shouldnt do -.-"

and my hp keypad spoiling, im v v sad :(

-jinghui-

it's finally over.

2009-05-14T21:55:00.004+08:00

after 3 consecutive days of tournament, today finally came. :) was extremely happy the past few days and looked forward t today, but somehow im feeling a little sad. but happy. idk. im not surprised i cried, really. its just j2 girls+desiree we v bonded. so i guess after going thru HELL AND SHIT, it's kinda hard for us t part. : sigh. i mean we're chinese speaking so its v easy for us t talk and we always crap and laugh so hard. at the slightest things. like today, in the bus. i swear today we're all insane, the j2 girls were so high and screaming and shouting i think the bus uncle was annoyed. HAHA. i'll miss these days. must go out ok! ting i really wanna go ur hse t play wii 0_0 cooking mama!!! and sonic! and i wanna go desiree hse t eat steamboat!!!

frankly speaking, bmt team sucks. i mean if it wasnt for the girls, i'll hate it more than ever. i wont say much here, but all i can say is smtimes, it really dont take much brains to see a person clearly, to make ppl wanna slap their faces. really. im talking abt two ppl here, im sure the ppl who know will know who im referring to. after all the nonsense, i'll leave these bad memories behind.

ok on a happy note if it wasnt for bmt i wouldnt have met my baby. :) but im stil glad bmt finally all over. no more leg aches, no more training till 9pm, no more all these stuff. :) finally i can start studying in peace, and study with baby. apart from my gp that's improving [yay!], my other subjects are still abt the same, or worse. -.-" geez. sigh! i need t work hard alrdy. :)

tmr will be a tiring day! 730pm have t be at botanic garden for briefing for Envirofest. :\ hope it wont be till too late and baby can fetch me. i hate gg home too late, i'll be scared :\ hehehehe. but celebrating wanyi's bday tmr! v good. hahahahhaa so exciting. :D

sat baby supposed t meet my family for kbox :) but daddy's sick :( hope he gets well soon! i'll do the housework for now. and i have t watch play with dale at night! i think im a very busy girl. hahahahaha :) so pleased no more bmt. promise i'll start mugging after a week. promise. :D

and my leg still hurts!!!!!!!!!!! :( damn it. hmph.

-jinghui-

happily tired. :)

2009-05-11T22:59:00.004+08:00

v tired now, but v happy too. today i gave baby a surprise which, im surprised, caught baby by surprise. :D i tot he would've guessed it. heh. but either way im very happy :D hehehehhehe. cos my baby's happy. :) and his mama loves the present we gave her too. from chomel. so happy. :D hehehhee. i love you baby!

i swear, i'll NEVER go to the chinese doctor to ba guan again, unless ABSOLUTELY necessary. so damn frigging painful, i cried. :( now stil v pain, i cant even walk fast. hmph.

last few days of bmt/training!!! so happy. :)

-jinghui-

happy vesak day! :D 2553th!

2009-05-09T20:28:00.003+08:00

today's a wonderful day. (: not only cos i did volunteer work on 2553th vesak day and im happily tired, but also cos my silly boy made my day by getting lost but finally finding me at my volunteer place. :) and it's significant, cos it's the first vesak we spend together! it's like this nice beginning and a little insight to our future. X) hehe. and i know my baby's trying to change for me.. :) and these are the little things that show that our love is strong cos it isnt just one party sacrificing and we're both giving and taking. this is what a love should be :) okay im just feeling warm and fuzzy cos baby's been really supportive and all all these while :) you make me smile, baby. :o)

okay gonna go rest, so tired today. and eeek what on earth did i just see??!?!??! JUNE HOLIDAY MAKEUP LECTURES. wth. please leave us alone to study can?!?!?!??!?!?!?! :( bleah. im anti-homework and anti-extra lectures now!

-jinghui-

yay yay yay.

2009-05-08T16:32:00.004+08:00

3 days of break! :D feeling v v happy now. :D though tmr isnt rly a break but its volunteer work at KMS frm 730am to night so im happy either way :)

just that i screwed up my econs test. uhoh. i chose the wrong question luh!!! D: sian. my part A was like a few lines ok. grrr. no way am i gg t let my tuition teacher see when i get it back. :\ i really think time management is one of my biggest problems. i need t do sth abt it soon.

tournament is finally ending. :) :) :) so so so so happy! the j2 girls were cheering and screaming and making bimbotic moves that ppl probably think we gt a good draw and have a chance t get into finals. haha. :x and i think ______ and ______ were quite pissed with us but we were kinda like oblivious. hehe. but yeah. as much as ppl say grades wil drop within this period of time i wont give myself excuse if i dont do well for my econ test. either way. IM STEPPING DOWN SOON!!!!! so pleased okay! :D it's finally over.

just that really, i think i will miss my either slow or aunty or clumsy or bimbotic friends. [no prize for guessing right who's who. hahaha] the j2 girls team quite close, maybe cos we're all chinese speaking and everytime we're together we laugh so so much. :D i mean, we wont rly spend tt much time together after we step down. :\ trainings would have been so much worse if it wasnt for them. esp my buddy tingyin who shares a favourite pasttime with me. hahahha! but it's really quite a relieve to step down. rly so tiring the past few weeks, and schwork is getting so hectic le. ms johnson said we'll get more depressed as time goes by. uhoh. : but anyway. finally i'll have more time t study. hate t see my grades always fluctuating. no excuses from now on ever.

and love? thanks for always being there for me esp when im nearly gg into depression or sth. the past few weeks really took its toll on me, but its finally gg t be over. :) i love you! cant wait for june holidays :) i wanna do so many things with you! like, eat buffet. and ice skate. and go on sg flyer at night. :D eheheheheheheh. and study, of cos. -sigh- hahahahahaha.

-jinghui-

tempremental.

2009-05-05T20:40:00.003+08:00

i think i need to have a whole quiet day to myself t sort my thoughts out. like totally alone. so tired just t even keep up now, to act like everything's fine. and i realised i feel like crying at any point of time in the day at the smallest things. which isnt really good cos it sounds like depression. sigh. feeling a little sick doesnt help either. i hate days when im cranky.

i need to remember my promise to myself of cherishing everything in my life, instead of blaming everyone for everything.

-jinghui-

i hate hw.

2009-05-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

ok no that i HATE hate hw. i kinda like hw. but i hate it cos it doesnt leave me with time to study. and hey im here cos im taking a break from frigging BNW [i.e. literature] ok. :)

today the class talked abt drinking and stuff. i feel like a total kid okay. literally EVERYONE drinks. including innocent looking cindy chang and oh so guai looking benjamin lin jiawei. can you believe it?? :\!!! haiyo. ok maybe im really v sheltered and protected. i will try lychee martini. and blah blah vodka dunno what. aiyah! now i really feel like a 5 year old. :(

okay back t doing hw :) so lazy to blog!

-jinghui-

tired.

2009-05-03T21:48:00.005+08:00

i wish bmt wil thoroughly end soon. so tired. and i wish all these will end soon; its so hectic and tiring i feel empty.there're so many uncertainties in life i really wish i can forsee the future and plan. i hate being caught off-guard.

and oh no why am i turning into a crybaby? maybe im breaking down soon. but its only may. :(

-jinghui-

arugh.

2009-04-26T15:00:00.007+08:00

why is it raining?!??! D: i need to go tuition. sighs. always like that one leh. >:\ sigh.

nowadays quite boring. bmt is like so annoying. really hate it i cant wait t step down i need a proper break. always do hw then no strength to study etc le. grrr. sigh. at least me and buddies in bmt gg for good jap food in restaurant on tue after watching guys play. okay i think rainy days make me very sian. nowadays i think j2 alrdy taking a toll on everyone. everyone also :( or moody. smtimes i really dunno if i should have children next time. i really love children, i'd love to have my own, but to put them through all the shit i went through? :\ idk. next time wil be even more competitive. look at the society now its alrdy so grade-based. i just heard alot stuff nowadays and im very disheartened. we're just getting further and further from achieving an utopian society.

as i grow up i realise alot of things have changed. its quite scary t grow up when i think of it; the perception of the world changes, and relationships with people are kinda altered as well. selfish? greed? oblivious? ignorance? maybe. idk. its not a matter of whether i want to grow up or not, whether i can go back to who i used to be; im forced to in this society. everyone tend to only think for themselves. sometimes i feel tired, drained, from all the giving and not taking. yeah lecture me about how giving is the gift of joy crap. wake up to reality cos it doesnt really work that way anymore. those are just gullible ppl getting taken advantage of. or lets just say in the past, people were very different to this material world of ours. :( sigh ok i guess ive just learnt my lessons and learnt to guard myself. im tired of giving unconditionally to people who dont deserve it.

ok i sound really emo. on a lighter note, im very :) cos alrdy quite a few ppl to date said im v good at sales and stuff. :) probably one of the only skills im v good at. but it kinda hurt a little too cos my arty-farty brain cells refuse to be good at math and econ, and i cant go business in uni. which kinda suck; my 17 year dream of following my daddy's footsteps and be a RM in a bank kinda went down the drain. sigh. okay well ive learnt to accept it. dont get me wrong; i love teaching too and im nt regretting my decision to work toward NIE. but it just kinda hard t accept the fact that i know i'll be good at a job but cant do it cos of education system. here we go again.

okay anyway. i felt damn fulfilled and happy by yst volunteer work at SBF [Singapore Buddhist Federation] fair in celebrating vesak. got to interact with alot of people, and children. same thing all over again i guess; some ppl are just damn hostile: and why am i not surprised these bunch are mostly Singaporeans. :\ yeah but im damn tired, dont have enough sleep, but its all worth it. :) cant wait for the volunteer work on vesak at KMS. :) should be fun and have that sense of accomplishment agn!

and baby's last paper tmr. :D must jiayou okay baby? im sure you can do it. :) i love you. :)

-jinghui-

you bitch.

2009-04-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

can you stop being such a bitch, bitch? >:(

-jinghui-

a few more trainings to go!!!!

2009-04-21T23:06:00.004+08:00

that's like, what i tell myself everytime i just want to scream and yell at sm1. grrr. my legs still hurt. forget it. im probably gonna slack agn than put myself through this agony AND get big thighs. what a job. and the worse thing is friendly match cancelled. :( wth. sighs. tournament is next week; yay yay yay.

many things been happening and im too tired to blog. so here's a summary.

1. i got stitch earrings. i LOVE THEM to bits, i swear. :)
2. i think i have too many hours of CIP.
3. i need my inspiration for lit.
4. i like to see my love laugh. :) it makes me happy when i make him laugh. <3 :)
5. i really really REALLY want the brown charles and keith bag. :( really.
6. been hit by ribena craze nowadays.
7. i cant wait for my bdae!
8. i hope ppl around me would cheer up. :)
9. I HATE AJ PE.
10. i decided to buy the AJC bear. it's really too darn cute. plus, i love AJC. :) [yes i do ling. dont even start on the grimace. hahaha. :)]
11. im addicted to restaurant city :D
12. frankly speaking as much as i hate it, i think pufferfish is a nice nickname. :)
13. drawing random stuff using GC is a great way to pass time in math.
14. i need t study harder. it just isnt enough. damn it. :( i really want to do well for my A's. can sm1 tell me how to memorize things!!

okay thats all. bye bye! :)

我今天尝到很甜的蜜糖。比蜜糖还要甜。:) <3>

-jinghui-

stupid 300+ squats.

2009-04-18T16:48:00.002+08:00

stupid bmt. my legs hurt like crazy now ok!! :( crazy. hmph. and apparently the whole of nxt week all physical trainin :( this is insanity i swear. but baby was really sweet and surprised me yst by fetching me from school after training :D silly boy. <3 hehehhe.

ok anyway im v whiny now. must be the humid weather. anyway i think im gonna grow like really FAT. *eyes the amt of food baby bought for me* ok. make that super fat. hhahahaha. but im like, i dunno. i dont feel hungry nowadays. :\ just dont feel the urge t eat. except m and m's and sweets and probably one or two jellybeans when i study. :) and NO, im not aneroxic or whatever. i practically live to eat. :) heh. ok maybe it's the stress. but then again. ok i dont know. :) maybe i need to start my BUFFET REGIME again. :) you do know that that's a irony right? hahahaha.

ok im trying to be v :) nowadays cos ppl around me like all quite depressed esp choir ppl. cheer up ok!!! look on the bright side: you guys get 2 weeks of free attendance and I DONT. there you go. does tt make you feel happier now? :) hahaha. cheer up ok dale, you stil have 25th anniversary performance! :) and you hv me! :) and oh btw, i found the choco pie and i bought a box. :D yummy!

there's so many movies i wanna watch now ok!!! :\ i cant even list them cos too many. grr. and idk if i have the time t watch also not! :( haiyo. :( as much as i finish all my hw on time i dont have the time t sit and study. :( I WANNA END BMT SOON :( but then, i'll miss my team mates i.e. tingyin and gang. :) cos im sure once training ends we'll meet up lesser. :( just like how our team outing ALWAYS fails. :( gosh. but i guess w/o them training would be such a dread. esp ting my slacking partner. hahahha we have a common fav pasttime!!!! :) : sitting down and gossiping and slacking. :) to be specific- at training. :D

ok im gg t study again now. :) my math. i swear, i HATE math.

-jinghui-

bleah.

2009-04-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

one week's passed so fast! :) had a few fun events in the past week; cooking and making ngoh hiam with baby was so fun. ahhahha. :) and it was nice to like eat breakfast with his family. :) though i was kinda craving for soyabean and youtiao instead of kuay chap for breakfast :X hahaha.

hello campaign was really fun too! hahaha. HELLO! im like quite happy when i say hello now. like saying hello is so natural now. no wonder they say practice makes perfect. :) plus, i had so many goodies from the event. love the shirt cos its comfy enough for me to wear at home, yay :D

hmmm. had friendly match with SAS yst. usually i dont blog abt bmt but the place was so pretty ok. and the people there make me feel inferior cos my nose is fat and buttony, not nice! everyone there so pretty and handsome ok. and ok anyway i cant wait to step down either way. :D 3 more weeks!!!!!!!! so damn irritated when i see ppl dont have t go for CCA anymore. idiot, and they stil said tournament pushed forward. my foot.

ok its late now so im gg to sleep. lest i cant wake up again. :\ and oh. im so pissed with ____. ZERO EQ, not even low. did so many things that leave me exasperated and pissed off. frigging selfish idiot who always think he's right, and only take and dont give, unless he can reap benefits out of it. my god, how can anyone like that exist? whether he is ignorant or not, he just blew it. it was the last straw this week. idiot, bloody b******. grrrrrr.

oh crap. i suddenly rmb there's training tmr. :( :( :(

baby good luck for your exams okay! :D you can do it im sure. :) im here t support you all the way! <3 love you lots. :)

-jinghui-

regret.

2009-04-09T14:36:00.002+08:00

i wish i knew what t do to make it all better. i wish i knew what actually happened.

perhaps, this regret will always, always stay.

-jinghui-

pw results.

2009-04-09T14:04:00.006+08:00

okay i expected a B or A. and i got a B. kinda what i expected but everyone, including me, wants an A duh. it sucks to have A for chinese and feeling so happy before getting a bloody B for PW and getting demoralised. so im feeling really crappy now.

i really thought my grp OP was great; okay maybe because we started off like total shit. anyway. my best bet is we din do well for our WR [we took so friggin long to even get it approved, let alone getting an EE which we never did.] and maybe my I&R. sigh. okay maybe, we really didnt put in enough effort or sth, idk. did a little reflection during GP lecture and i guess maybe we just weren't even together as one.

either way, im feeling really weird now so im gg to rest. lady luck is definitely not on my side this year.

on a bright side, im gg market with baby and his parents tmr morning t buy ingredients, then we making ngoh hiam for the whole of tmr, yay :) and sat im gg hello campaign with ling and there's free tshirt yay! another shirt for me to wear at home. :)

and i read meanie's blog. i swear, im like breaking almost every single one of the 7 deadly sins. oh dear!

7 DEADLY SINS OF THE WORLD:
- Pride
- Envy
- Gluttony
- Greed
- Wrath
- Lust
- Sloth

and as much as i dont have luck this year, ironically, im gonna wish all my dearies good luck: jenna, please get into SYF! cinch , i dont have t worry about you. haha.

and dale; you'll get through auditions i know you will. :) make chip proud!

-jinghui-

couple or trouble :)

2009-04-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

im addicted to this korean drama okay :)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Couple_or_Trouble

yay :) watch finish alrdy so happy :) im having this fuzzy warm feeling now. :) gosh. hehehhe i just LOVE happy endings.

-jinghui-

love.

2009-04-07T21:14:00.004+08:00

for lit hw im supposed to find 2 songs/poems on any theme and compare and contrast them. i think analysing songs are weird. : hahaha. but anyway. i chose the theme of love, as usual. haha.

but i picked my favourite poem, and now i cant find any song to compare it with. grrr. i blogged abt my fav poem before but i dont even rmb when. probably ages ago. so here it is again. :)

"i carry your heart with me" by e. e. cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it inmy heart)i am never without it(anywherei go you go,my dear; and whatever is doneby only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i wantno world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)and it's you are whatever a moon has always meantand whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows(here is the root of the root and the bud of the budand the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which growshigher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

isnt it just amazing? cos i think it's brillant. :) e e cummings has many pretty poems. :)

and w/o a doubt, my 2nd favourite poet. :)

my first? hahaha. my baby. ;)

-jinghui-

ironic.

2009-04-05T22:05:00.006+08:00

how ironic for me to be typing this a little after my post just now.

but im just really really sick and tired. and annoyed and irritated and pissed.

really.

i wish you'd go away. i really tried ok stop demanding so much of me im really shagged alrdy why cant u understand me like everyone else. you dont have the rights to say ath because you dont do ath. i wish you'd see yourself in the light everyone sees you in; then, maybe, you'll realise. i wish you realise you're driving me nuts to the point where i just wan t jump off the cliff and die. [ok its just figurative, just trying to prove my point of how exasperated and upset i am. i still want to get married have children and live happily ever after and have grandchildren] i wish next year comes faster and i WANT to get into NIE so i can support myself. i wish i can stay in hostel; but then again smtimes i think staying with baby wont be too bad an idea. im 18 i can choose what i want to do. i wish im 21 now so i am officially an adult and nobody can give me all the crap abt how im stil a kid im nt mature enough. shut that shit up cos im sure ive been thru much more than some adults have in terms of relationships. hate it when adults give me the know damnit all. i wish im 24 soon so i can get married and be free from all these shit. :(

-jinghui-

things will be ok!

2009-04-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

i hope. :) im feeling chirpy cos i met baby for 3 days in a row! :D friday i was feeling really irritated and annoyed but baby last min met me. :) felt so nice to just finally let go of all my emotions without needing to act. and then i met baby on sat too :) so happy happy. i think when i think back i guess i learn alot from my past relationships. and i realised that although we seldom go out, im happily contented. like me and baby dont watch movies, dont go shopping etc. but im happy. :) anyway today baby came to my school's funfair! for a little while. hehehe. im happy. :) hmmm today frankly speaking i had fun. :) although v tired cos i barely left the stall. nevertheless i had fun. :)

i'll pick myself up soon. and thanks chip, for understanding me. really. :)

-jinghui-

drained.

2009-04-02T22:19:00.004+08:00

im so tired now. nowadays. everyday. so many things t do and i cant catch up. and i cant be myself. i have to put a stupid smile on my face and act like everything's all right. i hate it. i wish there'd be a day, just a day, where i dont need to care abt ppl's feelings but just my own. im sick and tired of putting others before myself, sick and tired of needing to act like everything is all right when everything is NOT. i know im supposed to cherish and be thankful but im really tired. and its plain unfair this is such a bad year im alrdy god damn stressed enough life should just stop throwing all the shit at me. >:(

i hate jc. it shapes me into sm1 i dont even know.

i fcuking hate my damn hp now cos the buttons are getting spoiled. damn it.

i wish trainings would just go away.

and you, too. just shoo. i wish i can grow up soon.

-jinghui-

cherish all the little things in life.

2009-03-28T14:35:00.008+08:00

tossed and turned in bed last night; my mind ran through many things. all that's happened recently, all that had happened in the past, what might happen in the future. it was alot of thinking and i dont even know when i fell asleep. all it came to was a single conclusion: for me to cherish all that i have now, all the little things in life. alot of moods and feelings crashed and conflicted. i guess what happened in these few months, to people close to me and to people i know but dont really know triggered sth in me. for the better, i suppose. im no longer that ignorant little girl that took everything for granted. every single moment in life is precious now; it took me a long 17 years to realise this fully. and i promise to be a good little girl and pray everyday, and do good deeds whenever i can. and insist baby do the same. life's really fragile; it's scary that what used to be a mundane routine in life can change in a split second.

whoever said life's like a tv drama is so damn right.

anyway im really excited to see baby's reaction later. :) first would be shock i guess. hope he'd like the surprise. :) and yay, baby asked my daddy out to kbox. :D two of my favourite men together. :) yay!

next week wil be exciting! family day. :D shld be fun, yes? except the 1km run, of cos. i always hated running. hmm. im also meeting meanie on tue! :) and on a very, very, VERY happy note, i am left with TEN TRAININGS. how's that! :D agonizing, yes. but after this, i can concentrate studying alrdy. :) nowadays i have alot tuition and extra lessons and stuff too. so im really anxious for trainings to end soon. then i have more time. only 7 months left to A levels. it's a really scary thought.

then again. i dont wanna study all day and miss out the pretty little things in life. hmmmm. i'll have to juggle, yes? :)

ok. off to study my geog now! alot to study for atmosphere. but frankly speaking, it's quite fun. :D and yes!! i passed my first ever econs test. it sounds pathetic i know, laugh all you want, but it really means alot to me. :) and i got an A for my geog essay drought hw. :D that means alot to me too. heheheh, i can do it!

before i met you, alot of things didn't really matter to me. what came and went was just a part of life. but now that you've entered my life, i realised that you're my sunshine and you mean everything to me; losing you would be losing part of myself. I love you, and i'll cherish every moment we spend together in life. <3>

-jinghui-

2009 sucks big time.

2009-03-27T23:37:00.005+08:00

i dont like ox. i really dont. this year is so frigging unlucky and so many bad things happened alrdy, leaving me extremely edgy nowadays. idk, i stil have this weird feeling that sth bad gonna happen but i dunno what. and its v v scary. zzz. stupid 2009 :(

nth much happened nowadays [i guess for this year, it's a good thing], just really tired. and i realise i cant multi-task. and that sucks. :\! hmph. and today Orchard road learning journey. I FEEL CHEATED. THE TEACHERS PRINTED BLACK AND WHITE ON PAPER FIRST GROUP TO REACH SCHOOL AFTER THE ENTIRE EVENT GETS A PRIZE. AND THERE WASNT ANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( i feel so upset okay. we shld have just dilly dally and shop lah. wth. :( i'll never trust aj teachers on such stuff again :( angry uh! hmph.

today i had alot of mood and feelings through out the day, from happy to angry to exasperated to exhilarated... and to fear, anxiety, worried, panic, paranoid.... idk, it's rly scary. its like death, this year, is so so close. it's really scary. idk. :( :( :(

today, i felt the fear of losing someone really close to me, someone i really love. that's really scary. the feeling is so different from watch tv dramas, the fear was raw. i dont ever want to think about it or experience it [it's inevitable i know but still!] :( sigh. i'll cherish all i have after all the incidents that happened. second blow of this year. i cant take many more blows, i swear.

and im kinda worried. :\ oh dear. one more week, before i go into a complete state of frenzy and hysteria. eeeeeeeeek.

-jinghui-

photos 08032009 <3

2009-03-26T09:56:00.009+08:00

me and baby @ marina barrage :)

pretty bouquet baby gave me XD

on bridge on our way to keppel bay for dinner :)

pretty candle @ prive

the starter! that's not an egg yolk btw. :)

the ultimate choco mousse! <3

see how tired baby was :D he smiled for the camera anyway. <3
night at keppel bay was lovely.

love the bridge.

in the car! :D

it changes colour okay. :) i'd love to go there smday again on foot, darling! then we can take many photos :D

flowers on my table! :)

D: so frigging worried!

2009-03-18T12:40:00.006+08:00

before anyone complains, i know its been v long since i blogged okay. haha. too many things happened, im v lazy to type and all. lets start from 07032009!

celebrated my one year anniversary with baby! din exactly go well because....

a) we din get to ice skate. some crappy competitions were held :( okay nt crappy bcos they were really pretty and graceful on the ice im just feeling sour i din get to skate!

b) we got lost :( . I HATE READING MAPS! :\

hahaha. and we went marina barrage impromptu. not nice lor the place. :\ nth much. but i must admit its good for picnic. :) v difficult t drive in though! but dinner @ prive was cheaper than expected so thats great. :D it was rly romantic and all. i highly recommend anyone who wants to have a romantic evening with their love there. i mean, keppel bay itself was so so pretty. the bridge was lovely too :) but the food was v. v. french kinda cuisine so if you dont like sea urchins and stuff, dont go. but THE CHOCO MOUSSE WAS AMAZING. its like one of the best desserts i ever ate okay. no kidding. :) that tiny cup was deifinitely worth 18 bucks. :D but it was really nice to spend a whole day enjoying without having to think about school work and exams. im rly lazy to post photos, cos my hp cable spoilt. another day, maybe. :) but GOSH. the catching up for hw and studies thereafter totally sucked :\

08032009 :) <3 the actual day! but had tuition and all, so only ate dinner with my baby @ manhattan fish mkt. hated it. :\ big fan of fish and co., so everything was just plain odd for me there. bit tasteless. :\ anyone wants the voucher? im nvr gg back there to eat agn, dont suit my taste buds. anyway baby gave me a really pretty bouquet of flowers! :) and till today some are stil hanging upside down. Im trying to make dried flowers! :D hopefully it works.

okay, the week after that was plain boring. alot of hw and studying. however i bought a clutch from Warehouse @ a sale! really really pleased with it. :D its purple. heh. and sat i went NUS and NTU open house with my dale. (: been rly rly long since we actually went out together and had fun.

in the morning at 9am we took the train to clementi (._.) and went NUS first, cos she wanna go there. i swear, NUS is really wild. like compared to NTU, they are completely different. the hostel and all were like so frigging high and crazy and they keep talking about block outings and parties and clubs ok. LOL. and NUS alot alot of goodies!! they actually gave a rly pretty diary that's probably about 10 bucks? idk. and lotsa random goodies that i was v happy about when i sorted them at home. hahah anyway. @ NUS i was just looking arnd, dilly dally-ing. i mean, i'll nvr go there mah. chang was so tired after that. lol. thereafter at bout 12pm, we went NTU! :D was really excited, cos its like it wil either make or break me. and guess what, i loved NTU after we went arnd and stuff. :) i guess the wild party kinda lifestyle @ NUS isnt rly for me. :) and well of cos once i got to NTU, i zipped to the NIE booth. the person was really nice. :D and she totally just reinforced all my decisions! ehhehe. :) then after NTU me and chang went orchard cos she wan t get her hp which she couldnt get in the end. then we went hk cafe to eat. food was so so, but the frigging mango ice thingy was so good!!! but we were so cold after that. LOL. but the entire day was so tiring that neither of us took photos. that was how tired we were.

anyway hehehhehehh. now im really excited abt gg to NIE. ive nvr been so excited about going to another point in my education life. :) now all i need to do is work hard i guess. :\ im keeping my fingers crossed! and heh. when i get into NIE baby can fetch me to school hopefully everyday :D yays!

okay thats about it. now its the HOLIDAYS, apparently. but yah with all the work and all, it wil nvr be. and trainings! gosh. i cant wait to step down i swear. but today im really really worried and i keep having clammy hands. :\ i hope everything will be okay. i must be strong i must be strong. i prayed everyday so everything shld be ok..... right?

-jinghui-

excited excited excited

2009-03-06T22:16:00.004+08:00

i got an A for my alevel chinese. (: one step closer to a pretty cert. but oral only gt merit; cant say much cos i know i screwed up. oh well. all that matters is the A.

anyway it was scary to know one year ltr i wil be taking all my results. sigh. okay time to study hard. so scary. :\ nevertheless, im in a v happy mood now cos tmr is the day i cele one year anniversary with my baby! :D :D :D going ice skate, walk walk or sth then prive. (: yay yay yay i hope its pretty and i hope i dun have bad hair day and i wont over___. how annoying ok. heheheheh. anyway its good when your parents know you have a bf cos if they approve, things are alot easier. :D [if they dont approve, things will be worse. lol.] dont have to sneak around etc, since my family really strict [i cant even stay overnight at chalets]. well in the 1st place i dont rly like places like zouk PLUS baby wont like me t go so i guess my parents have nth t worry abt. hahahah.

and im almost done with presents. really excited. :D but i haven paint my nails so im going off now! :D yay yay i hope tmr comes faster but passes slower when it DOES arrive. (: hehehehehhh. AND I STILL CANT DECIDE WHAT TO WEAR ZOMG. hahahah ling cinch chang and jenna were like exasperated cos i decided against whatever they suggessted. hahahahha :D i swear, jenna's like a mother and cinch is her daughter. LOL. just like how i feel like a nanny to chang -.-" gosh.

and look at this photo from corbis. its so damn cute! :D i burst out laughing and going ohmigosh when i saw it hahahhaa. :D i just love babies and children. (:

-jinghui-

CHINESE ALEVEL RESULTS.

2009-03-05T20:43:00.003+08:00

zomg i SWEAR nxt year when I take ALL my sub results i'll just DIE. im alrdy like so frigging worried and terrified cos im taking chinese results tmr zomg. :\ eeeeeeeeek!!! D: and i made a pact with dawn. if i get an A, i will treat her to erm, i dunno pizza hut maybe. if i get B and below [oh my ---- hope not!!!] she treat me to lunch instead. okay i think now im just really scared and hyper. due to sugar rush. :\ oh my gosh. :(

and guess what baby told me! ntu open hse on 14 too. great!!! :D gg with dale on 14 march :D ntu [due to me] and nus [due to her]. hahaha (: so gonna be busy that day! i insist on sitting at NIE LT4 from 11 to 145. hehehehehehhehe. maybe chang will decide t be teacher too. ;) i wanna teach pri or sec school! (:

okay. now im still really worried. i think tmr before 1220 i will be jus jumping/ squealing/ fidgiting until i get my results. sorry chang and ling. hahahha bear with me la ok im really worried. D: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkk!!!!!!!!!!

thinking of sat and sun still dont really make me feel calm! :

-jinghui-

sick. :(

2009-02-23T16:31:00.006+08:00

im feeling quite horrid and sickly. and a little gloomy and sulky. okay im down with a fever and horrid cough and flu so i suppose its normal.

anyway baby was really sweet yst and accompanied me to the doctor's (: hehehe. i love you sweetheart.. im stil quite worried about the incident but aiyo. okay ANYWAY. im a little incoherent today again. hmmm. well anniversary's in about 2 weeks' time and im really excited. :D :D :D

http://www.vi-hotels.com/fileadmin/user_upload/gallery/aloi/6._ALOI_candle_light_dinner.jpg

been asking arnd and scouring for restaurants that caters candlelight dinner for baby and me to cele our anniversary and i found a few! Perry recommended this place called Prive at Keppel bay. [http://www.prive.com.sg/] looks really good. (: and best thing is apparently they do put candle so there you go! candlelight dinner yay (: the only thing is it'd be about S$300 for the both of us. hmmm. will see how the other restaurants are first then decide :D but really looks good. :D too bad revolving restaurant gone. few weeks back i was desperately searching for restaurants but now im so spoilt for choices cos there're so many restaurants for me t choose from! :D cant wait. hehehe. anyway thanks to all who tried helping :D

http://www.playtimelasvegas.com/imgname--go_ice_skating_in_las_vegas---50226711--iceskatelakelv.jpg

and im gg ice skating with baby for our anniversary! :D sentosa can wait. hehehhee oh my gosh im so excited cos ive nvr ice skated b4 :D i hope i dont land on my butt.. and hopefully, we can skate like the pretty couple in the picture! :) and hmph, im so indignant that baby said i look kiddy with my new haircut, and i look like a digimon. DIGIMON. a frigging digimon. zomg. i was like WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!???? im "darlingmon", according to him. hmph. watch out you. hehehehhe.

and i finally bought my nike bagpack (: last piece too! hehehhe. yay :D too bad baby refuses to let me buy one for him too.

mmmm wed im gg NUS for this geog thingy. hopefully its fun :D hehehhehehhh. okay goodbye! im going t study geog. i think atmosphere is fun but tough. :\

i hate being accomodating to everyone, im tired of everyone not doing what they should and leave me to worry about it. and i hate trying to make everyone happy only to feel unappreciated, end up im the unhappy one. :(

-jinghui-

i hate being j2 already.

2009-02-20T23:21:00.003+08:00

i studied the whole day today ZOMG. im living up to the AJ mugger name. sch, training, the tuition. im so tired now.

and im sick. thanks to ling who passed the bug to me. i feel horrible and upset now. sighs. and AJ killed a fish. :( the emptied the pond not realising there's still a fish there. zomg it was like struggling out of water. i ran away. :( :( :(

anyway. im damn tired now so im incoherent. and im upset everyone says my new hairstyle is kiddy okay gosh. :\ i insist im not 5 years old just cos i love stitch! hmph. and cos i cry at almost every movie. oh oh, "the curious case of ben button" was nice. in front quite boring, but well yeah. at the centre to end i started crying alrdy. v. heart wrenching grrr. :( sad ending okay sheesh. i wanna watch he's jus nt tt into you. and night at the museum2. and ice age 3. zomg im excited. :D

and i love cathay cineplex. :) my favourite! popcorn good, little commercials... wonderful (:

and hmmm. my dear OG 3509 wants to have outing on 21 march. to SENTOSA. great. :\ why cant we go shopping instead! :( hmph.

mmmm. now that im still stuck in AJBT i guess i'll make the best out of it. (: so that it'll pass soon!!!! and i cant stand the ajbt notice board. OCD kicking in sheesh. will do it up soon.

okay bye. piano tmr morning. and im hungry now i want soup. :)

i wan a new bagpack!!! my puma bag is with me for 4 years and its old and bit torn alrdy. :\

-jinghui-

what a damn crappy cow year.

2009-02-18T23:49:00.002+08:00

i swear, this year is bad. horrid. terrible. tsk. what i damn ^%(&$^%(@$^@%&#$! bad year. im itching to swear. but i shant. :)

time really fly past v fast leh. it scares me. anyway. orientation was fun but im stil like suffering from lack of sleep. since last monday i nvr had a like damn good sleep cos weekends have t wake up early too. :( so im kinda like grumpy and shag all day long from lack of sleep. sheesh. today was the ultimate man. NAPFA then bmt training. walao. :\ i swear im aching head t toe and tmr i cant walk properly. shit. zzz.

on the bright side. im done and forever done with NAPFA. great :D and seriously i proclaim myself as anti-sports. the sporty me is gone i hate sports now. hmph. anyway. jc2 is so darn busy okay i find myself stuck in a mini rat race. everything's so rushed and a monotonous cycle until i want to scream. grrrr.

haagen daaz vanilla ice cream and my baby makes everything better.

and crap. i have OCD. this is what JC does to me :\

-jinghui-

Orientation 2009- infinity

2009-02-10T18:16:00.005+08:00

being OGL is fun. :D just that you have t sacrifice alot, like time. i have alot of catching up to do, and hw to rush also. but nonetheless its fun. i think it kinda reinforced my decision to go NIE after all. yes i must admit smtimes all the trouble and problems drive me crazy and nuts but at the end of the day it's fun and fufilling. (: so now im no longer aiming to go Business, but get a scholarship and get into NIE. :)

anyway. my OG is okay i guess. i can rmb all their names yay :D they're not very noisy, but not very quiet either. however its only day 2. and they're warming up. :) hahahhaa. really funny bunch that i can nonsense with. :D well some of them luh. haha. chang really really damn blur and smtimes i go :...... (insert big sighs) so i decided to give her one stupid clap. :) hahahah. im sure she's trying desperately to rack her brains to devise a clap for me. ;) right chang???? hahaha. tianjun is really high, and thad.. idk. lol. anyway. scorpius is kinda dull compared to rest of alliance, but the cheers [thanks to tj] are really funny. my fav goes like this:

what you gonna do ah
when you see the best ah
when you see scorpius ah
siam, you better siam siam you better siam
Siam ah, you better siam ah siam ah you better
SIAM AH YOU BETTER SIAM AH YOU BETTER.....
SIAM. siam. siam siam siam siam
xi shua shua xi shua shua, xi shua shua bloop bloop
xi shua shua xi shua shua, xi shua shua YAY
xi shua shua xi shua shua, xi shua shua bloop bloop
xi shua shua xi shua shua, xi shua shua sssssss!

okay it isnt like very nice here but when its like frigging loud with actions its damn nice. :D i think backside cheer is cute also. hahahaha. :D so fun. day 2 much more fun than day 1. hopefully the next 3 days are fun too. but i think i need sleep. :\ I ALRDY HAVE EYEBAGS. :(

okay so thats about it. now i cant think of ath except hw. :\ so i shall go do hw now.

whats past will stay as memories. i promised her not to cry anymore. i promised.

-jinghui-

vulnerable.

2009-02-08T20:49:00.004+08:00

i guess we're all vulnerable. like i once told chang, i hate it that i cant control my own life and yet it controls me. im not a christian so i dont believe in god and his path for his followers etc. but buddhism just teaches you how to lead your life to the fullest. so technically im quite annoyed i cannot control my life. bad/weird things are still happening to me. like today there were these 2 really ZOMFG annoying men who thinks the world revolves around them. sigh. i hope the sun comes out soon.

i guess we cannot control life and death, and it is inevitable. but the last time someone i know died [my grandpa] was when i was really young, and i dont rmb ath. vague. but this time, now that im 18, the pain is unbearable. although i dont know how jac looked like, and i barely know her and only wrote letters....she's still my friend who loves stitch too. :( its really scary how life can manipulate us. just a few days back i smsed her and although i can sense her pain, she tried to show me she's ok... she's really strong. :( i know its rather silly of me to like, bawl over it but i just feel really sad. and i hope she's happy wherever she is... you've been really strong, and its time for you to live happily. i hope the stitch stuff i gave you cheered you up; you'll be dearly missed, jac.

this incident jolted me awake to reality. of how lucky i am to be who i am, to have the family i have, to have my friends, to have my darling. i sat silent and pondered for very long, numb. i cannot imagine how life'd be like without all these people. and i swear i'll try my very best to be nice to everyone. and just now while smsing baby, i tot of life without him. i think it was really scary thought, cos i burst into tears. [i think my water retention problem is solved cos i cried alot just now.] okay i think im gettin incoherent. i dont really know what to say cos my emotions are like in a vortex now all mixed up. but i really feel lucky now. and ms johnson, thanks for everything. after talking to you i felt alot better. my parents kinda freaked out when they heard me bawl. esp my dad he looked so helpless. love you daddy.

anyway. to cheer this gloomy post up. i bought shorts frm cotton on, and a tanktop darling loved me wearing. it was stupid cos the shorts one for 30 bucks, two also for 30. anyway i need shorts so i bought two.

and im feeling loved cos me and baby got over a quarrel last night and i will change for him just like he's trying to for me. <3 quarrels are kinda nice cos i guess without them the relationship is flawed. and it's quarrels that bring two ppl closer than ever, if they are meant for each other. and i do feel closer to dear and our relationship is stronger after every arguement.. :)

and i think doing DIY with baby is really fun and it's like sth we both enjoy and its so sweet. :) i hope holidays come soon so that darling can finally bake with me.

and i really like my rainbow billabong slippers.

and i decided i wan t get the nike bagpack cos my puma's falling apart and EVERYONE tells me how dirty it is.

and today baby met my parents for lunch; it was lovely. crystal jade makes me happy. and seeing my parents pleased with my baby makes me happy too. it aint easy to get my parents stamp of approval.

okay im getting teary again. i'll cherish what i have now. <3 i will.

okay tmr is orientation i hope my OG is fun, yay. and vday is coming soon. :D hope i have the energy to write everyone's letters.

and im really excited to see baby FIX UP his present. hints, my love. :) and DIY with baby again! and cook. :)

and well i feel quite disoriented and messy and tired and my room is messy. i hope things will get ok soon. its time to study hard! 10 months is very short. go go go!!

in the meanwhile.... my tv show start alrdy. shall watch to cheer myself up. yay yay dance flow!

-jinghui-

2009 is a bad year i swear.

2009-02-05T22:33:00.004+08:00

i figured. all sorts of stupid and sad and weird things happen this year. and its only feb. its like a bad omen to the coming months. :( its like things i nvr tot would happen. sighs. i wont say ath here i dont want to. but today was a weird and bad day too, cos ling saw sth she shouldnt. :\ see. sigh.

anyway. im so busy with school now that i dont even have time to update my diary on events. except sch work. so its like my planner is empty, my hw list is uber long. :\ this week totally sucks, cos yst was CCA carnival and stil got training. that means SIX solid hours of contact with bmt. it was torture. :( sigh. training tmr again. and a devastating fact i gt to know of yst.

BMT TOURNAMENT IS PUSHED BACK TO APRIL END.

shit wtf. i completely lost it when i heard the news. i dun understand how the rest can keep their cool and calm. :( oh my god. to think i was hoping march can step down alrdy. sighs. and now my body is aching EVERY SINGLE DAY cos it doesnt have the time to heal. my back has been aching for weeks and my mum says if it doesnt get better i have t go for acupuncture. SHIT. damn screwed up okay im so terrified of pain!!! :( sigh. well maybe then it gives me an excuse to stop training for a while. i dont want to have like whatever my ah ma is having when im old its so scary :(

now i think i dont have faith in every subject you know. :\ geog econs lit. 3 H2, none of them im sure of an A grade for A levels. oh my god its such a terrifying idea. A's is in TEN MONTHS' time. gosh. frankly speaking im alrdy starting to gear up and attempt to study but everytime i even try to finish my hw i no more time alrdy. thanks alot to bmt. sigh.

okay i shall stop sighing. anyway. im really glad now i can catch up with j2 work. CATCH up, not on par. so there's stil alot more work for me. plus my j1 work sucks big time. and geog is a different story. ATMOSPHERE is difficult. :( :( :( i mean i can understand some parts and its interesting i must say and now everytime i look at the sky i can see the ITCZ and winds and everything. and clouds are ICE. how cool is that. but if i have to take an exam on it.....:\ its very difficult to grasp it. aiyo. aiyah in all i just have alot of catching up to do for jc1 work. for all subjects. go go go hengjinghui!!!

i think its weird jc shaped me to become like that. i feel odd w/o hw now you know. like, very naked. stripped bare. lol. maybe ive begun to like studying! ......i hope. :) then life would be so much better. hahahhahahhahaha maybe i'll get smarter too and not get bored and fall asleep when i come across a boring article or have to read math or econ or geog or lit. wait a min. thats everything. -.-"

well on a happy note saturday will be lovely, sunday will be lovely, and next week is orientation week yay :D hopefully it'd be fun. alot of work to do though, more catching up of work. okay anyway thats then. now i have to rush presents and hw. :D happy happy! sentosa! baking! daiso! DIY! shopping! :D

tmr OG lists are ready. and there's a briefing for class leaders at 4pm... i hope these give me an excuse to skip training. :D

and thank goodness there's baby to keep me through these rough times. :\ i love you sweetheart. im here for you too! :D and i swear the penguin clip is the most beautiful of all. :)

-jinghui-

retail therapy works.

2009-02-01T21:29:00.002+08:00

even if its just window shopping. :) sales make things ever better. esp when the clothing is pretty and is on 80+% off hahaha island shop loves giving huge discounts huh :) yayayya and i bought new furry penguin clips.

anyway. im pretty excited about j1s coming esp orientation :D i cant wait :) although i'll have to catch up on my studies. well at least i can skip some trainings yay yay :D i really hope step down soon im so tired.

today was the chingay help-out thingy. IM VERY ANNOYED. firstly. no time to finish my food have t throw away. secondly :( NO MORE SHIRTS LEH!! wa lao the worst thing is there was these 2 aunties that take wrongly shirts theirs should be plain polo w/o chingay design. and you know what they said?

walao make us keep changing like models like that.

WHAT?????!!!!! end up they still keep the shirt ok :( and i dont have any shirts :( gross. :( sigh. anyway chingay was pretty luh me and ling kept taking photos. and there were many kids and babies to make me really happy :D

sat baby went to bai nian with my ah ma :D yay :) and this sunday he gonna eat lunch with my parents again. :) plus vday is around the corner. sth to cheer me up :D and im almost done with presents yay :D

okay my show start le Dance Flow is nice! :D

dear study hard oh you can do well for ur test de! :D i love you :) and im sure everything will be okay. im praying everyday.

-jinghui-

chingay.

2009-01-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

and oh, ling has successfully persuaded me t go help out @ chingay parade as some i dunno, crowd controller. i hope i dont get stampede to death or sth.

-jinghui-

bad day.

2009-01-28T15:23:00.003+08:00

today's a really bad day. first i got cheated of $1.50. then i realise i lost my penguin hairclip. :( how much worse can a day get. i hope the sale is still on so i can buy another set. :( maybe i'll buy 2 sets in case it drops again. tsk im not one who loses things often so everytime i lose sth i get really upset. :( and lastly today is wed, meaning there's bmt training. %*^%#(^%$(#$%(*^# stupid stupid stupid :( :( :( :(

and im having a panic attack now i think. the date is drawing closer and what i tot was far behind keeps niggling in my mind now. :( im really scared and worried what the end result will be. shit. sigh... i know im not helping dear by ranting and worrying but i cant help it im really scared.. what if the endless prayers din work any miracles? what if the result is the worst i ever feared? i dont know what t do i hate sitting around doing nothing letting life control everything :( what will happen next? sigh..

okay i guess today im just really emo and upset. hopefully tmr everything will be better.

MY PENGUIN CLIP :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

-jinghui-

stupid pineapple-lemon ling.

2009-01-25T17:40:00.003+08:00

ling i swear you have to stop the pineapple thing because i find it really hilarious and i feel totally bimbotic laughing to myself.

"actually pineapple and lemon the shape almost the same also what." -Tzuling.

oh my god, ling you just totally showed how bimbotic you are can. hahahahahaha. how can a pineapple have almost the same shape as a LEMON??!?!? i purposely chose a photo whr the lemon is also vertical...it doesnt even look a bit like pineapple ok. hahahahhahaha. bimbo!

-jinghui-

eve of CNY.

2009-01-25T15:16:00.010+08:00

no biggie. this year's cny is like.. idk. no atmosphere. maybe xmas was too close to cny. :\ or maybe cos this year's A levels. so.. idk luh.

im pretty upset now, cos im listening to “一枝梅" OST and i happen to come across some tagboards. apparently there's part two and he din die BUT. its different cast. :( then there isnt much point isnt it :( there goes my junki. :( AND i cant find the song "flower letter" in MP3 format. :( sighs. check it out, its a lovely sad song that can totally make a hyper me cool down at once and flashbacks of the show come back at once. this shows how successful the show is. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Fl1c8LHYyM&feature=related

anyway. alot of things have been happening, alot which made me changed my opinions of people. i give up. sigh. well on the bright side, i have ling and chang and we'll help each other pull thru. :) at least when im with them i cannot stop laughing, and i forget everything else unhappy. just like ling's most recent post on her livejournal. it made me laugh to myself like some retard luh. hahaha. esp the part whr we smiled sheepishly at each other. hahahahah. and the idea of ling as a pineapple was most appaling, cos she said on thurs @ pizza hut that she's a lemon. gosh. hahahhaha.

to all my dearies that help me through, thanks for putting up with all my moodswings and nonsense these few weeks. and my love, i know we're both tired and stressed now, but i know you love me very much so its okay t sms lesser. :) we have tuesday coming! :D i love you.

i dont know what t make for my frens for vday. hmmm. had an idea but figured its way too time consuming. and chang says make for her for HER bdae instead, whatever the idea is. -.-" lol. aiyah. will brainstorm smmore later.

im craving for sth ice blended now. the weather sucks big time. zzz. im tired too. :( okay dont have the mood t blog anymore. and i jus tot of training, which totally dampened everything. bye bye!

oh, and i bought this penguin accessory set at 70% off from Accessorize. im damn pleased with it, and ima wear the hairpins to school and cheer myself up. :) no way am i gonna wear the ring and necklace though lol.

-jinghui-

numbed.

2009-01-21T20:24:00.003+08:00

alot of things been happening lately, i dont know where t start from. now the most pressing thing is just baby's stuff, and i just hope everything will be okay. its niggling at the back of my mind and smtimes randomly i wil start worrying and sigh. im praying everyday in hope that everything will be all right. :( i love you dear; dont be sad anymore <3>im here for you 24/7.

okay. another thing is my studies. im working v hard now but i rly wish bmt will stop soon. many a times by the time i reach home im so tired yet i have alot hw to do. HW, i dont even have the time to study. grrrr. sigh. okay. ling, chang, its time t start our mugging sessions at my hse or ling's hse yah. and occasionally chang's hse :D see la you live so far. tsk. hahahaha. we must like, go on a stop-ourselves-from-shopping campaign. it will do your wallet good too, my dear toufu.

and my dearest twin; i hope you're feeling better now. i know this is a rough time for you, but im here for you just like u were there for me. im sorry i din know what happened on the same day until at night when you told me. gosh silly deb you shld have told me. :( im here for you so sms me whenever you need sm1 okay. as for the other matter, everything's sorta resolved and you can be at peace. i know you're probably still bu fu qi and little upset, so am i, but i guess its over so.. i love you twin. :) i can see you like, tmr and on friday! i insist you join us for shopping movies and lunch/dinners all the time okay. and do u rmb the drawing we always draw and the slogan we always put? :) jing and deb. twins for life. :)

okay enuff of those stuff. im tired of minding ppl's business so i decided to only mind those who are my loved and dear ones. and tzuling please remind me to be nice everytime i going to explode. [you know what im talking about] then again. my god i dont understand how some ppl can be so sti---. GRRRR.

ok. off to hw. :D

-jinghui-

live the moment.

2009-01-19T22:59:00.002+08:00

i shld start living the moment and ignore things i can. i wish trainings and pe will go away.

im putting my trust in you; dont ever let me down again. we'll pull through it all, and im never gonna leave you no matter what, especially when you need me the most now. all i can do now is hope and pray everything will be all right. please please please.

i'll bake you muffins, if you'd like. heart shaped ones. :)

-jinghui-

lost.

2009-01-17T12:21:00.001+08:00

i dont know what to do now; im like so lost and confused. and worried and scared. :( i wish everything will be okay. its been an hour..

i'll chain him close to me if everything is okay.

-jinghui-

im so tired.

2009-01-16T23:09:00.003+08:00

im really tired and its only the first week of school. the breaks are used to study or rush hw that i cant complete [thanks alot to bmt.] and im really tired from exercising almost everyday my muscles ache like crazy and i ran 3.2km today. this is insanity. :( im so tired really tired.

i officially announce how much i hate trainings and pe. they drain the energy out of me; im gonna take them lightly. and im gonna try finish all my hw on time WITH quality. no point not doing it properly. and i cant seem to find the time to study properly. can sm1 tell me why? :( maybe signing up for OGL was a bad idea.

im sorry baby; im always so tired and stuff. hopefully things will be okay.

-jinghui-

school drains the energy out of me.

2009-01-15T23:03:00.005+08:00

once i get thru jc everything will be okay.

and apparently my new year resolution isnt working so ive alrdy given up on it! cos sm ppl are jus unbearable and im sick and tired of it. i dont know if they're that stupid or they act dumb. oh well. face it you'll nvr make it.

and part of me is still feeling >:( and meeting twin today din make things any better. twin if you see this post know that whatever decision you make i'll support you. Ive done all i can, giving you advice and a support, and i'll be here for you. okay? <3 im SURE you can do well in either poly or jc this year but do think of what i told you today.

okay im tired and my body is aching like mad thanks to almost exercising everyday. I NEED A REST. :( i cant wait for bmt to stop i cant wait for bmt to stop i cant wait for bmt to stop. then i can 1. study full force and score the grades i want to score. 2. stop having aching muscles. I HATE THEM. 3. finally be free. 4. i can go dancing. :)

anyway. today i started prep for vday :D and hmmm i contemplating whether to start anniversary too. okay oh well im v tired now so i shant think now. lol.

and i miss baby. :( alot. :( i seriously cant wait to finish A levels and go NIE. :D :D :D then i can see baby EVERYDAY since NIE is in NTU :) yay! i love you baby. and can you remind me so very often i cant gossip?!??! lol. <3

AND OH! i scored a distinction for my music theory YAY!!! :D 91/100! its damn damn good for me. :D yippee!

-jinghui-

how tiring!

2009-01-08T19:28:00.004+08:00

OGL workshop was tiring. not tiring because it was tiring, but bcos it was so boring. until i got tired of trying. :( it wasnt high. okay maybe it was just my grp? idk. even dale was totally :\ and i was totally :\ so it makes the 2 of us. sigh. hopefully my OG will be fun! im keeping my fingers crossed.

walao my shoulder hurts ok. shld i rly get a bagpack?? but.. aiyah. :\ tsk. and three more mths and im free from torture. and i'll be a happy girl.

okay today was pretty okay. couldnt find what i was searching for, but well still have one more place t go. if dont have then im clueless alrdy! mmm today's surprise wasnt really good :\ :( din really get the reaction i tot i wld get. but baby's tired, so i cant blame him. :) im not upset anymore dont worry k my silly boy. cheer up sweetheart! <3 you can drop TCM if you want; frankly speaking i rather you not go china. :( hmph. well baby it'll be tiring this sem but i know you can make it. :) im starting school too so i'll work hard together with you :) sigh, guess its back to those days whr we can only meet on sats. :(

open hse tmr; how boring. whatever; schools gonna start nxt week and its the monday blues hitting me alrdy.

some ppl just dont realise what a fool they are making of themselves.

-jinghui-

little miss pissed off.

2009-01-04T19:36:00.003+08:00

for the past few days ive been pissy. :( thank goodness for baby. <3 for being oh so lovely. :)

你把她宠坏了。真的。好讨厌，我快烦死了啦。总死不承认自己错，以为自己很大，要全世界的人向他磕头但自己.... 唉。 i wish i could do sth about it. maybe i can.

anyway.

i think magic pens are lovely things.

okay tmr baby school's gonna start le. and i have OGL thingy. hopefully it'll be fun. well at least i skip trainings. cant wait to step down.

shopping nowadays SUCKS, horrible designs, odd sizes.... zomg. i hate this year's sales. :( okay im gonna start saving alrdy. no time!

im being completely random cos econs totally took my brains out plus bmt im just like walking dead.

i think im gonna fall sick soon. how nice. :(

-jinghui-

happy new year (NOT!)

2009-01-02T11:40:00.007+08:00

its my A levels year. whats thr to be happy about! and well. new year dont rly mean ath to me; CHINESE new year does. ;) hehehehh. but really. counting down to a new year doesnt really make any sense to me. i had a good sleep that night after all the hw. :D not really into late night parties i guess. i mean. my parents dont really allow so... ima good girl :) sorry to all my BFY who come across this post of mine! :\ sorry i din join you guys at PES on 31122008 for countdown and sleepover. :(

anyway. my new year resolution is pretty simple. so that I CAN REMEMBER. not like dale's; wa lao so long, you every min can rmb meh. LOL. here goes. [in no particular order.]

1. do well for my A's.
2. make darling the happiest man on earth by showering him with love and TLC
3. be a good friend to my best buddies: twin, dale, toufu, meanie, bao. (will try okay. i will try not to be too grumpy!!!) and a nice person to ppl i dont rly like? [i know ling will laugh at this. look, she's YOUR wifey. not mine. hahahahhahahaha.]
4. my family to be free of quarrels.

there. more than enuff. the rest is based on luck and caution. like, health etc. so okay. happy (not) 2009 year! and my dear buddies, lets work hard together okay. whenever one of us falls and refuses to get up we must spur each other on. :) go go go!

i wish i could change the past. yet, i cant. all i can do is try to atone for the mistakes i made, hoping that time will make everything okay. <3

-jinghui-

LOVE.

2008-12-30T23:21:00.004+08:00

i know i found my own piece of forever. whatever happened today made me even more sure than ever that i love my baby and he's just the one. (: thanks baby. for everything; i'll happily take up the "punishment" of taking care of you for life. X) you're worth whatever it takes. <3> i love you. <3
yst shopping with baby was well. fruitful in a way. initially i was close to tears cos nvr in my life has shopping been so FUTILE. the top i wanted at dorothy perkins- gone. the shirt i wanted at armani exchange- gone. diva bangles and earrings-gone. :( everything i wanted to buy no more ok. :( but in the end at heeren i bought a top. phew. :D it is CNY shopping so at least i gt sth alrdy. its pretty, like rly sweet kinda. i dont rly wear such but it was rly nice. and a new bag! big enuff for me to stuff everything in- sweet. baby bought a nike shirt too after i persuaded. heheheheh. well anyway. my colourful bag fell apart so its time to get a new bag. it was heart wrenching to throw my colourful bag away though. it has lived thru j1 with me :( :( :( goodbye, coloury! :(

anyway. im contemplating whthr to get a nike top. its pretty! but ex for a top. like $70 bucks. im trying to save alrdy you know! since i alrdy have one CNY top... [to baby: penguin is happy alrdy ok.] :D plus, xmas presents burnt a hole.... oh well.

okay. sch's starting soon! better finish my hw soon :\ oopsie daisy. and my new timetable is out!!!!!! tuesday is tiring. :( and i think alot tch change. im upset. sighs. and how i wish bmt will stop soon zomg. STOP STOP STOP!!! waste my time. :( and i can go dancing once training stops ;) yay yay yay!

ok apparently they have this new youth olympics course thing for jc students.i saw on news yst. and our aj tch got interviewed on tv. great. i hope they dont implement for jc2 students. i know, all roundedetc etc students are the best. but have they spared a thought for mediocre students like me? after we ENDURED pw and chinese in jc1, jc2 is the time for us to chiong and study alrdy. we need all the time we can have, and we're alrdy dead beat with all the H2s and H1s. im not those smarty pants that got straight As for promos. i SCRAPED past. sigh. sometimes i wish the ppl who implement such stuff can put themselves in our shoes. our, as in mediocre, normal students. not smart ass students. :( jc's torture all right. sometimes i wish i had gone to poly instead. why din they implement for poly? i can never understand.

well sigh. as i always say. i cant wait to be a 在家妈妈 and take care of my children. really. that'd be bliss.

-jinghui-

there goes christmas.

2008-12-28T15:14:00.006+08:00

christmas was lovely. :) baby visited my ah ma with my parents, then he had a lovely surprise for me! :D hahah we did the art thingy! erm, the one that you colour, then put into oven. hahaha can we do it again soon? like find the biggest place so have many designs. :D hehehe. it was succesful and lovely :D it's on my cupboard wall now :D and then we went his hse and i cooked. :D well. with help frm his mama luh. :D both of us din spend much; well with vdae and anniversary coming up, i rather save for the extra special event! ;)

after christmas, mundane days return. oh my how mundane. okay how about ATTACK OF MUNDANE DAYS. D:

there's rly nth much to blog about. unless i blog about juxtoposition and enjambement, and rhythmic patterns and how it goes ABAB or ABBA. tsk. or how different policies affect like fiscal, monetary and C+I+G+(X-M). or how air is uplifted, or the difference in the patterns of the isotherms btwn northern and southern hemispheres. sigh. its like hw and hw and hw and studying and hw. :\ and shit, i think i kinda forgot how to write essays, structure etc. damn.

and whats with motorcycles and their loud brrrrrrrrrrr!s? stupid damn annoying ok. i know that sound can be omitted one, just that they dont want.

okay the weather is super annoying and im damn cranky. like super uber cranky. life hasnt been good and its gonna spiral down nxt year. it doesnt rly help when im at home too. "home is whr the heart is." yeah right. six more years. how i wish things would've been different. i swear im not gonna be like that next time. how i wish i could ease the pain.

speaking of that i decided i really wanna take care of my kids next time. like, maids? no way. i dont wanna work and leave my kids alone. im going to cook everyday and let my kids bring bento sets to school. :) maybe make extra sets for her frens once in a while too. :D im hoping for a girl. like everytime i see boys outside fighting with each other, i fervently hope i have a girl nxt time. :\

i rly hope i can get into business for uni. otherwise i have nowhr t go anymore! :( i cant do sci stuff, nor too artsy stuff. grrr. sigh. my future is like a big question mark.

except the part whr i dont have t study anymore and i can happily bake heart and stitch-shaped cookies and cakes and cook everyday and settle into a simple life as a housewife. :) and teach piano/tuition when the kids are at school/ballet lessons etc... ah. blissful. and when my baby comes home my whole family wil eat homecooked dinner, and then watch tv before we read our kids bedtime stories and tuck them into bed, telling them there's no boogeyman. X) and then it'll be just the two of us. :) mundane? i dont think so. kids are like the source of life. (: plus, i dont have to study anymore. ;)

okay im day-dreaming. :\ 10 more years till i lead the life i want. instead of being stuck in this stupid education system whr a degree is how ppl look at you. TSK. well at least i took the first step of learning how to be a good wife next time! :) i know how to whip up a few dishes alrdy! like steamed crabs with vermicilli, stir-fry veggies or whatever, steam herbal chicken, ABC pork ribs soup! :D are you amazed! hahaha take that ling, deb or whoever always say i cant cook hohum! X) and at least i know how to wash clothes and do housework. :) hmmm. im gonna search for baking lessons to attend with darling's mama. :D teehee. hopefully i can find.

okay im little bit cheered up now cos im gg shopping with baby tmr!!! :D for CNY luh. yay yay. :D cant wait! we're gonna eat CPK for lunch, my treat! since i have $20 bucks voucher. and hmmm. i dont know, maybe billy bombers for dinner? or sth cheaper if we buy alot stuff. :D hopefully its a fruitful trip :) i wanna get 2 bags. one bagpack and one shoulder bag. and erm dorothy perkin's or armani exchange's top. just buy the essentials; the rest can wait. :) dont wanna spend too much at a go. teehee. i love you baby; penguin will be happy soon! ;)

now that christmas is over there're a few events/occasions that i look forward to and that are very near!
1. CNY. :D
2. korean clay workshop? :D :D it'll be quite ex but i think it's super sweet to make clay models etc together XD hehehe.
3. vdae ;)
4. our one year anniversary!!! <3 XD
5. my bdae. IM TURNING EIGHTEEN! oh boy oh boy! :D

heheh. :)

okay off i go. to do hw. :(

-jinghui-

i love zoo :)

2008-12-22T18:55:00.003+08:00

i love the zoo :D teehee. and i love baby too. (:

and yes my favourite animal is still the penguin :D heheheheh. they're really cute. X) waddle waddle :) otters are cute too. :) and i hate alligators and lions and erm. i dont know ath that wil be able to eat me.

what a wonderful world. <3

-jinghui-

The Gift.

2008-12-20T18:03:00.002+08:00

cecelia ahern's new book is really nice. :) like really really nice, but the main character died. :( okay, i cried. X\ but its like really meaningful book cos it kinda made me ponder over the message the book was trying to convey. but tsk, why cant it be a happy ending? :(

still. it was a good book. and funny at some times too. lol. :D at least cecelia ahern din let me down this time round. ;)

back to doing hw. :\

-jinghui-

oopsie-daisy. X)

2008-12-16T17:58:00.003+08:00

and zomg cheryl chungs!!! i just saw your blog. i managed to make you love daiso too huh hahahhaa :D and i wanna watch twilight too :(

and i SO do not act like a mother! :\ oh dear. hahahha. but it was kinda funny that day when you kept exclaiming that im like your mum with like every single move i make. lol. great; i bet ling's gonna laugh at me. stupid toufu.

-jinghui-

little miss confused.

2008-12-16T17:41:00.004+08:00

im so confused by everything now! either the world is odd, or IM odd. :\ i choose to believe the first one. (:

im seriously so in love with daiso :D i can like shop w/o worries. bought really cute letter pad a few days back :D teehee, and a rice cum cookie mould!!!! :D :D I MADE TWO RICE HEARTS WITH THAT. :D how about that! hahahahahha. gave one to darling and one to his mama! (: heh. im gonna try new recipes soon yay. (: dont they always say "the way to a man's heart is through his stomach"? ;) well not that im not already in his heart but its always better to make him smitten huh. XD

okay these 2 days were the most boring days. i mean, how can training be fun? so tired. :\ tmr im gonna stay home to do my HOMEWORK. ima good girl; left lit and geog! gogogogogog. (:

okay im like so waiting for next week, when deb's exams over and chang is back. then we can watch twilight. zomg everyone's talking about it and i haven watch tsk! hmph. see debbie lim we're so nice to wait for you okay. X) and christmas is coming; i cant wait to go shopping. :D okay all these is like, after i finish my intensive mugging hw session :\ -big sighs-

and okay for once i'd trade shopping for zoo and escape theme park (: maybe im gg nxt week with love!!! to escape theme park yays :) i hope all goes well. i mean it isnt even decided. hahaha im just blabbering :D stil planning! (:

zomg ting lent me Forensic Heroes 2, and dingding died okay!!!! zomg zomg. :( crappies. sighs! just when i was like crying over FH1 when dingding and ah chen were so sweet and get engaged. sheesh what a pooper. and channelU 10pm-11pm new show is nice :D junki is pretty; zomg he's like prettier than me! D: lol. (:

okay ima go rush hw and xmas stuff. (:

-jinghui-

a little love.

2008-12-14T21:22:00.004+08:00

my com officially died. daddy's gonna take it to the doctor's soon. :( apparently it has lost some formatting stuff. sighs.

and some food for thought. i saw a eurasian mother and a black child today, hand in hand, walking in my condo area, laughing. i think the eurasian mother adopted her, cos i heard the little girl calling her "mummy". it was a lovely sight, and it made me ponder for some time. would it have changed the terrorists' minds if they saw this sight and thousands wouldnt have died these few years? i dont know. i wish it had. cos it kinda strike me that a little love's all we need sometimes, and set those prejudices aside. i guess things would've been different. and a big thumbs up to that mother, cos it aint gonna be easy in this world of ours. :\

i wonder when things will change. sighs.

and tmr has sucky bmt again. on the bright side, christmas is next week.

-jinghui-

i hate holidays.

2008-12-12T16:56:00.003+08:00

i really do. like once holidays start, i have to get used to it. and when it ends, i have to get use to school again. TSK.

then again, this isnt really a holiday.

aiyah. holidays spoil me too. i get to see dear often; when school starts i cant anymore :( now w/o seeing him for a day i feel weird. crap.

i miss you alrdy, darling! :( i love you neo sheng xiong! stupid, stop teasing me with what my ahma said okay mr neo sheng xiong. hahahaha X) and zomg i wanna nua luh. grrr.

and im feeling uber lazy. can i not go to the BF camp? :\

-jinghui-

:) fat from it all.

2008-12-11T20:07:00.006+08:00

ive been eating alot nowadays, like, alot. :D oh dear. hahaha. and yst i jus ate like, abalone, sharks fin, prawns, cakes...... :\ oh dear. hahaha! and i jus ate famous amos cookies! uh-oh.

yst baby's bro's wedding was lovely. :D the bride was really pretty! i cant wait for the day its my turn to be pretty :) okay anyway. it was kinda boring in the afternoon, but when we gt to the place for makeup and stuff it was fun. :) darling's mama was pretty yst too; though the long dress was a bad idea cos i saw alot of ppl stepping on her dress and there's nth i can do except help her lift it off the floor once in a while :\ anyway, food was nt too bad, and i got to wear my daniel yam dress at last! :D and i'll wait a year t wear it for prom. (: save money, ahahha. and i think baby's hot in his zara blazer and tie and long sleeved top. (: he made my heart stop for many seconds. then again, he always do. hahahaha dont fly away with that ego of yours, love.

erm yeah thats all i guess. i was jus eating and eating. hahahaha. wedding wasnt much like those perfect weddings ive seen, but well it made me cry at certain parts. just a little. (: too bad i missed the part they said "i do"; i'll probably bawl or sth.

i hate after-weddings. i have this really odd feeling, like nostalgic or sth. okay gosh why on earth am i even studying when all i wanna do is get married and take care of kids? :\ im like really seriously considering nt gg to business in uni anymore after a year studying econs; i dont mind taking up early childhood etc. i think being a kindergarden tch is kinda nice. i'll enjoy my job. :) okay i still have a year to think. in the meanwhile..........(fill in the blanks. what do students do before A levels? D:)

im like obsessed with cooking now! im learning how t cook frm darling's mama. :) so far no big blunders like spilling the entire wok or sth. phew. ahhahaha. okay next im gonna learn how t cook vermicelli since baby said he loves it. :D teehee.

okay im jus kinda in a day-dreamy mood now. told you i hate after-weddings.

and baby was really sweet; he bought me cecelia ahern's new book "the gift" (: to cele our 9 mths together. silly boy, whr gt ppl cele 9 mths one. hehehe. we're gonna be one years old! :D i cant wait. (: and i cant stop feeling silly and smile to myself when he insisted on sending me to my doorstep yst cos it was late. X)

iloveyou. (: zomg i hope 6 years go past fast. :(

-jinghui-

what a crappy holiday.

2008-12-09T15:21:00.006+08:00

look. its dec alrdy and i haven finish my hw. thats really bad. sheesh. and this holiday totally suck cos its supposed t be the "last" holiday until A levels end, but LOOK! im like, a complete busy no-nonsense woman on a mission. sigh.

okay. maybe im jus annoyed i cant go ling's hse today, and i need a proper full-force shopping which i probably wil ask ling or go myself. :D full-force means barely any stops t rest and shop non-stop for hours happily. (: ling seems like the only one who managed it and we always have pleasant shopping experiences. (: esp @ orchard. :D

okay anyway. that'll have t wait. my schedule is packed lah. zzz. okay lets see. nth much exciting happened since the last time i blogged. oh yes. my com's old and cranky alrdy. i seriously need t start saving and get my own laptop soon. it takes like 5-10 min t start up. and its slow. sighs. oh well.

erm. and darling treated my parents t CPK, which thereafter we went shopping (: teehee. he bought a lovely long-sleeved shirt from esprit which he totally looked hot in, and i made him buy all the stuff he need for CNY. like socks and towel. :D i saw a really pretty pink top from dorothy perkins. i wanna get it for CNY :D teehee. i hope it isnt gone soon. :D and OH. i bought many many boxes and i love daiso. my room is lovely now. heheh. (:

okay so erm. baby went t visit my ah ma with me too. she loves him t bits, so everything went well. then i went his hse to COOK! zomg can you believe it. :D lesson ONE! i learnt how t fry. :D and dip the prawns and fish into the sauce and put it in the oil. teehee. pancakes conquered, now im moving on to larger things! hahahaha. okay i wanna try making mousse soon. (: yay!

and tmr is darling's bro's wedding! yippee, i get t wear my gown at last! (: im so excited. think of all the photos i can take!!!!!!! :D yay yay yay. doing my own nails and makeup as usual i guess. christmas is coming, my pocket is burnt alrdy!

and im sick now that's the worst thing. i have MC for 2 days okay. grrr. will abstain from ba kwa these few days. it's frigging addictive :D

okay erm. nth exciting cming up this holiday except BFY camp which meanie and bao cming with me, and christmas, which im gg out with baby but dunno whr. (: i had a horrid experience last yr when i work on x'mas day, it was so squeezy when i wanna get home. so im really contemplating if we shld go see x'mas light ups. gosh, the horror.

and i need t go shopping for presents soon. :\ oh dear. can i tell santa that ive been good all year, and ask his reindeers and elfs to finish up my hw so i can be a perfect little angel and go shopping for presents for my loved ones soon? :D :D :D

dear santa,

i've been a good girl this year. i dont really need any christmas present this year; i have a request though. all i want for x'mas this year is your lovely elfs and reindeers' help... to finish my ohmyfrigginggoodness hw! :\ pretty please? i'll leave a cookie [famous amos, if you like], a cup of milk [full cream. i believe with all the hard work you're doing, you've lost weight] and all my hw for collection by..... erm. the window? the door? you choose. (: thanks, santa. xoxo.

ps: dont forget you have t return me my hw by 12 january!!!

with lotsa love,
jinghui

there! maybe santa wil agree t help. (: hahaha zomg im turning retarded.

-jinghui-

300th post. (:

2008-12-04T17:55:00.005+08:00

today i stayed home whole day long packing my room: spring cleaning galore! :D hey. im not kiasu okay! i see that twitch of lips. Chinese new year is nxt mth!!! :D i gt alot of cleaning to do. :\ its been years since i really did a proper spring clean D: yucks. hahaha

today i kinda like threw away lotsa stuff and i feel so :D. haha. and there goes the past; ive put it behind me w/o any regrets cos now the future's more than enough for me. (: mmmm. and baby's having lunch with my parents this sat :D apparently we're going to CPK!!! lovely; i love that place it has like the best pizzas :D and i love their chips with spinich sauce; its frigging good :D

okay dinner here i come! im so hungry.

and did i mention again that i love daiso??? hahaha. (: i need more boxes! zomg i need to exclaim again. my room's so much neater now! still alot more work t do though :\ ahhaa.

-jinghui-

happy birthday, love (:

2008-12-01T21:39:00.006+08:00

happy 21st birthday darling :D i hope you had a lovely day with all the surprises and stuff. :D yay, i now proclaim myself as............................Dr. Heng! :D oh yes, i major in planning. got my phd just today. :D okay this is completely retarded. im jus tired now after a whole day of surprises and fun :D haha i love you baby. :D

okay erm. lets see what ive been doing recently. hmm. NOTHING. grrr. nonsense trainings that take up my stupid days. i hope i fall sick soon. i want to rest @ home! sighs. okay the only big event was charity funfair which was fun :D baby went and he met my [almost] entire family. lovely. they loved him to bits. (: which is a good thing, except tt im annoyed he wasnt freaked out and i was when i met HIS months back. and I took SO long for things to be the way they are with his parents, and all he took was HOURS. hohum. :\ charisma, they say.

mmmm. then nth much nor exciting le. except today. :D my little brain's been busy thinking of wat t do and stuff, and ran errands yst like mad. :D which is of cos, worth it. :D teehee. i hope baby had a damn memorable 21st bdae. :D okay probably all im gonna blog abt today is, erm, today. hah.

went his hse early in the morning and surprised him cos he was still asleep. :D made pancakes and they were lovely, and apparently im appointed to make somemore for his mama soon. ON MY OWN. i can do it okay. i dont flip pancakes out of the pan! :D :D :D hints, love. who ask you laugh at me! :D hmmm kbox was amusing and tiring [thats what u get when u only have 2 ppl] and daiso was lovely. i bought this really feasible and simple and plain plastic box for my nail polishes etc. i hope everything fits in. anyway. daiso's nt the point today.

we had lovely picnic which i woke up DAMN early to prepare. :D which, of cos again, was worth it. (: we ate sandwiches i prepared that was bountiful of fish floss, and snacks and cake. wind was too strong, din light candles i brought. and then we spent several hrs jus being in each other's company, as we waited for sunset. which, was....lovely. (: im yes, lazy, to post photos so that'll have to wait cos my Forensic Heroes in channel u START ALRDY!

goodbye!

-jinghui-

hmph.

2008-11-11T21:17:00.005+08:00

apparently. i have to try several times before a photo is uploaded. AND. apparently i can only upload one at a time so it doesnt go "this page has expired" X( grrrr. annoying.

i love you sweetheart. (: <3 i know you can do it! :D do your best cos its more than enough. (: we can go bowling and play pool and go to the theme park and the zoo soon. :D

i fall in love with you all over again everytime i see you;

-jinghui-

cry till the cows come home.

2008-11-11T20:49:00.004+08:00

you have no idea how much holiday hw i have!!!!! zomg. how does 10+ essays sound alrdy? im not exaggerating. its like lit alrdy has like 6 essays lor. plus geog!!!! D: horrifying? hmmm. more like petrifying okay!! D: and thats not all ok. still have other stuff such as reading of new lit texts, DRQs, worksheets...................... zomg. :\ this is insanity. okay. holidays is like not in my dictionary till my A levels are over nxt year. gosh. :( i'll either have to work till the cows come home or cry till the cows come home. :(

"holiday hw" is an oxymoron. :(

okay. im still very jumpy over the amt of hw i have. :( Miss Johnson was so funny today. funny in a bad way which made me laugh and cringe. she went like this:

"Ladies and gentlemen, now a very important announcement."
-silence-
"your holiday hw!"
-groans-
"now, we are very nice teachers, and we have very nicely prepared for you about 4 DRQs and 5 essays for each topic. hmmm example, population maybe 5 DRQs and 4 essays, urban......"
-i stared with my mouth open-
".....i will upload on IVLE soon, check often...........yah. okay so, see we are so nice. we plan for you guys to do just nice.....ONE A DAY!"
-insert signature Miss J smile-
-insert me going ZOMG?!?! and laughing at Miss J's way of speaking and cringing in fear-

okay. that was what happened today in geog lecture. :\ and started on wind movements and motions of heat energy today, with all the CF and PGF and zomg subtropical jet stream and polar jet stream and westerlies and polar easterlies............................@_@ atmosphere is so difficult okay :( gosh. sighs.

okay so. geog holiday hw is crazy. so is lit, with holiday hw package being 52 pages. and 4 books t read. GP is crazy in its own way. im so glad no more PW and chinese or else i think i will die. :\ sighs.

today's lit workshop was kinda boring. well i tot ms zobel was funny. and she voted for obama too. :D and she apologized for the mean things ____ has done. wow. takes alot of courage i think. (: "change has come to america" indeed.

okay erm. did i say how much i love daiso? :D its the only place i dont feel bad when i splurge.

"I love you! only @ daiso." -tzuling

haha. cos i always stop her from spending on unnecessary stuff i know she wont use. deb claims im her financial consultant. hahaha. anyway. i think wii is damn fun. :D hahahhaha. can rly sweat lor. lol. :D heh.

oooh i finally gt a new wallet! :D finally. i found the perfect one. gosh im like elated okay :D its from liz claiborne! yay :D promise will upload photos WHEN I.T DECIDES TO CO-OPERATE WITH ME. hmph. -indignant huff-

okay bmt training's like three times a week. AGAIN. gosh. i cant wait t step down. im so tired and sick of bmt. :\ my legs and right hand is aching AGAIN. grrr. sighs. so annoying okay grrr. %$(#&%)$#&^%)*$%)*#^%&@*)%#)@*! :(

gonna eat sushi buffet tmr :D yay.

okay i dont wanna blog anymore im tired.

baby good luck for your exams that starts tmr. im sure you can do it and do well :D do your best; you know that im always here for you and i believe you can do it. (: i know you have worked really hard and im sure you can get that first class honours you want in a few years time. dont give up okay! :D i love you <3

-jinghui-

Obama wins!

2008-11-05T23:08:00.003+08:00

yay! (: i hope he will stop the war. for those pro-war, im sorry. i just dont like to see ppl losing their loved ones, i dont like t see bloodshed. i hate wars. i mean, i dont even like gross movies like Saw. i think it too much for me to bear. therefore i want peace. and ever since mccain said he is pro war, i wanted obama to win. i dont care about his skin colour; i wan sm1 who can lead. and im glad Obama won. (: i hope he wont let the world down. show the world what you've got, Mr Barack Obama! :D

make sure you attempt to stop the war. :\

okay. today was a fun. :D went shopping with ling. SHE BLEW ALOT OF MONEY OK. gosh. i bought what i kept looking around for. :D fruitful day.

and ARRUGH :( my pretty slippers NO MORE SIZE. forever. arrgh. :( sigh bye bye ripcurl. i saw a pretty oriental style slippers at NUM. but i think its nt worth it; i rather get nike in this way. aiyah. okay im gonna stick to my black-pink slippers for now.

and i saw flats i really like. like, REALLY like. :( gosh. i need t invest in a good pair. :\ and i still cannot find the perfect wallet. im very upset. arrugh! :(

on the bright side, took pretty photos today. today was a good day for me. hah.

now i need t find a way t find perfect shoes t match my gown. grr. buy? rent? borrow? maybe i ask darling's mama. :D heh. and i nid t buy his bro's wedding present soon. arrugh. and christmas presents for frens and family. and i cant work this hol. grrrrr.

oooh. i think accessorize has really cute stuff like PENGUIN BAG AND PENGUIN SOCKS :D i was tempted t buy but ling stopped me. thankfully. cos they were erm. kinda for kids. but i tot they were way too cute i loved them :D hahahahhahaa. and zomg i cant believe sm1 said i look older than ling. like, gosh. hahahahahhaha. :D take that, bramate. stop saying im kiddy.

dint get ath for myself today [unless you count food. yummmm. :D din eat the jap restaurant at paragon though. ate macs and ed's fish. yum.] mmm. sweets. haribos DUO. mmm. :D its probably the only gummy i like. hahaha. :D

ok gonna go sleep now :D hehe. before that im gonna revise my shopping list :D :D :D

darling, study hard ok? im sure you can do it :D hehehhehehehhhh. arent you excited for ur exams to end? cos then a special day will be coming! :D and ur bro's wedding. yay i can wear my gown and i insist you wear your blazer. how about u get a white tux??? :D :D :D :D :D hehehehhe. I <3>

night night!

-jinghui-

(:

2008-11-04T20:57:00.001+08:00

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close, and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide
(Troy and Gabriella)
Now won't you promise me (Won't you promise me)
That you'll never forget (That we'll keep dancing)
To keep dancing (To keep dancing)
Where ever we go next

(Troy and Gabriella)
It's like catching lightening
The chances of of finding, someone like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance?

(Gabriella)
Ooooooh!
No mountains to high enough
(Troy and Gabriella)
No oceans to wide
Cuz together or not, Our dance wont stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to beeeee
(Gabriella) Yeeeaaaaahhhh!

(Troy and Gabriella)
It's like catching lightening
The chances of of finding, someone like you (Oooh like you)
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do (The way we do)
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance? (This dance)
Can I have this dance?]

HSM3. <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lW-1Ytwn4a4&feature=bz303

too bad. photos cant upload again!

2008-11-04T19:34:00.004+08:00

ah, shucks. oh well.

and the videos i tried uploading also cant. grrr.

i seriously think IT annoys me smtimes.

-jinghui-

arrugh. X(

2008-11-04T18:50:00.006+08:00

i think all electronic items are against me. :( really. hmph. they bully me jus cos im a noob! ugh. now i got a new item on my shopping list: a new camera. :( i always cant load my photos into my com from my hp! :( sighs. and i know i haven uploaded photos since, forever. lol. will try today. promise.

okay erm. everything kinda whisked past. finally, chinese and pw is over! and my music theory. none of the 3 am i satisfied though. :( i hope i can pass my theory which needs 66/100 to pass. grr. i dont really know what t blog abt cos life has been mundane. whoever said "life's short. live life to its fullest." must have been frigging rich, so he can do what he wants and not slog his life out.

can i tear away all my pw? :D

hmmm.

i saw this really pretty pair of ripcurl slippers. :\ sighs but its all gone. grr. shouldnt have walked away the day i saw it. sigh. well on a happy note, baby bought me the stitch 2009 diary i wanted (: it was a lovely surprise. :D its rly pretty and i think i'll do well for my A's. hahahhaa XD its like squishy, so very nice t press and its colourful :D hehehe. (: and i did a little surprise for him too. ahhahaha. (:

baby work hard for ur exams okay? i'll support u all the way (: i know you can do it :D and heh. look, 2 more weeks before you see my parents again. hahaha. :D how time flies huh. heh. go go go darling!

mmmm. im kinda like stoning around these days. think i need t do sth soon. cant go work this hol so i guess i'll read. heh. (: oooh and there's this hamster show that's really cute. (: okay the main character's a dog [eeeeew. they freak me out] but the hamster sidekick is SO cute okay! hahahhaa. (: i wanna watch that movie too! hehehehe.

aww i took a sneak peak at "wu ling da dao" trailers on youtube and i was very :( cos i realised how much sg cut away! :( and my fav group will leave later in the show. shucks. :( Dance Flow is amazing. sigh. and hehehehhe yst their dance they danced as penguins [the theme was nature; animals] zomg they were damn good. i'll try put up the video for their other dances too. amazing. and ARRUGH! so you think you can dance 3 in singapore. in US they alrdy starting 5th season. crap :( no fair!

i think mia michael is cool. her dances always make me cry. :( there's like so much than just dance, the layers of meanings behind it. esp so you think you can dance season 2, she choreograph the park bench. that was like one of the most most vivid dances that i think will stay with me for a long time to come. it was amazing. (: and shane sparks is cool too. :D hmmmm. okay. i think i like all the judges and choreographers in so you think you can dance. :D biggie fan. hehe.

oooh. i love this song called Goodbye, by audio adrenaline. cant find the file though. such a sad song, perfect for graduation nxt year. :\ thank goodness no more vitamin C "graduation". im SO sick of that song. lol. go listen to "goodbye". its amazing. and im in love with "waiting for the world to change" by John Mayer too. (: lovely song that was accompaniment for one of the fixed dances in SYTYCD. (: heheheheh.

okay. off tryin to load random photos. (:

and im worried and i hope the results for US president election comes out soon. :\

-jinghui-

breaking dawn was... beautiful.

2008-10-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

yes it was. i dunno @ how many pts tt i cried. i tot the 1st half of the book was BORING. but after bella gave birth to renesmee and jacob imprinted on renesmee, it took a turn and the book was lovely. (: rly exciting and my mum had to force me t sleep then i put the book down. (: it was rly good and i found myself smiling at many pts. hehehehhh. and im so happy bella and edward happily ever after. hah. (: however i saw movie trailers of twilight and i tot it was a little.. disappointing. i dont know. hopefully my opinion will change after i watch the entire movie. :D

okay. anyway. nowadays life's boring. like rly boring :\ its pw, chi, pw and more chi. sighs. well i went for OGL interview and i found it rly funny. hahahah. :) im keeping my fingers crossed. well. in a way. hahahaha. and zomg. training's so crappy. im so sick of it. i cant wait for the day i step down? i'll be gg WOOHOO! (: and i can finally go dancing and study properly. yippee! :D heheheh. sigh. ok. that day's still far. one impt day to look forward to is the end of PW, which is in.....one week's time. YES~! then no more pw. hahahahha.

okay anyway. music theory exam this sat. im bit scared im careless. hmph. :\ oh well. i'll do my best :D today was a cool day, hehehhehh. details, go to chang's blog. lol. lovely. (:

okay erm. back to muggin for chinese and pw and theory exam. :\ sch tmr. ugh. just finished I&R. hahahaha.

-jinghui-

I HATE BELLA.

2008-10-19T23:13:00.007+08:00

yes i do. i dont like it when she loves two guys. okay. not exactly guys, but one vampire and one werewolf. finished eclipse today. ok yes, go ahead and gasps. i read fast, ok? im jus very very VERY annoyed now. and upset. :( bcos wen i read i kept crying cos i could feel edward's pain. yet he was so selfless. zomg can u imagine the pain? :\ sighs. ok its late now and i wanna go to bed but im VERY annoyed with bella. and jacobs. oh, i HATE third parties. AND odd numbers. :( and zomg im so worried about the ending. dear refuses to tell me D: sighs. help help help!!!!! will bella be a vampire at last? they will be be married right? zomg. sighs. :( i wish jacob was non-existent. :( i really dont like the stinging pain in my heart when i read. sighs. edward is like, perfect. literally.

and now im upset, with blogger. cos it refuses to let me upload photos time and time again and now it refuses to let me upload twilight movie pics. :( zomg now im so anxious for the movie to be out.

one thing i learnt from twilight series- I'll never ever hurt my love the way bella hurt edward. it was too much for me to bear when i read edward's side of view. no way. i'll nvr ever allow a 3rd party into our rlnship. hohum. i'll squash every tiny bit of affection for another if it does comes about. i'll make sure he does too. harrumph. >:\

I'll be back so soon you won't have time to miss me. Look after my heart- I've left it with you.
-Edward; Eclipse.

and oh! high school musical 3 is almost out~~~~~~~ :D :D :D

and harry potter! im abit wary of this though, cos i heard the wizard's gonna die. dumbledore. sighs. i'll rmb to bring in a few packs of tissue.

OH! ice age 3 and madagascar 2 is coming too! :D wonderful; all my type of movies. (:

-hints, love. hahahahah-

-jinghui-

fast and furious.

2008-10-18T18:59:00.004+08:00

finished New Moon! :D in like, less than 24 hours. hahhahha. thats how hardcore i am when i read books, tts why i din read this yr until after promos. lol. well. on to eclipse. its quite annoying Bella likes 2 guys @ same time. X( and i insist new moon is nice to those who told me the opposite. its so exciting! :D hated hated hated the part whr edward left bella though :( cried plain shit. hahahaha. cried agn whn they reunited. so darn sweet ok. X) but aiyah. bella is quite stupid; obviously he left her for good reasons ma. hmph. thank goodness for the phone call; otherwise [annoying yet poor thing to be on sort-of one sided love] jacob would have kissed bella. ugh.

ok ive been so obsessed with twilight series. (: and shhhhhh. i cheated. read the last parts of breaking dawn and eclipse, but still clueless. hahahaha. excellent!! good books should never allow predictable endings. :D

my dear's too tired le. overworked, i think. :( sighs. i feel the stress and sch taking its toll on him, on us. i'll jus have to learn to understand i guess. i jus wished he isnt so burnt out, it hurts me to see him like tt. :( promise i'll bite my tongue everytime i feel annoyed and wan t quarrel with him. :\

jay chou's new album's gonna be out soon. (: heard the songs since daddy asked and i think its nt bad. (: dear insists on gettin my daddy the cd. hehehh. and i think im gonna start saving up for 2 major events. :)hehehehh. hmmm. or 4, actually. hahahahahha (:

i have this like, intense craving for ba kua. dunno why. keep eating. ha. and everyone is falling sick leh. :( including my daddy i hope he'll be ok soon. :( i dont wanna fall sick now! i can feel the heaty-ness. oh dear. chinese A's coming, and pw. i cant afford to fall sick. even so, i rather fall sick after it all; i couldnt care less. even better, fall sick _________. hhahahahahhaha. wonderful. simply wonderful. (:

back to eclipse. (: econs tuition tmr, plus coaching. :\ and chinese hw. UGH.

"The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance, or time."
-Bella; New Moon.

-jinghui-

photos...not.

2008-10-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

apparently blogger decided once again not to let me post photos. : dunno why. aiyo so annoying. i really wanted to post photos, really. :(

http://www.twilightthemovie.com/ go take a look. (: i insist on watching this movie.

some things had changed, and i suppose will stay this way for this entire lifetime. it is one mistake i will rmb for the rest of my life; i want to rant but i no longer have anymore to say, it'll be pent up forevermore.

-jinghui-

just like any other day.

2008-10-16T20:55:00.001+08:00

okay days seem to be passing very fast nowadays. and i realised that thats what i always say this year. jc life rly pass v v fast :\

these few days have been horror. cos its PW everyday. till like, 6pm? quite tiring actually. plus chinese. only 2 subs but im dying le cos its damn intensive luh :( pw sucks alot. as in really really alot. i hate it. :( we planned so much t go ling's house this week, end up? PW PW PW PW PW PW. so cancelled. ARGH. how annoying. :(

okay to happier stuff. im addicted to storybooks again. (: esp twilight series! (: i procrastinated long enuff, cos always no time to read ma this yr. now that exams over, i picked up the first book. i finshed it in 2 days. :D its so sweet and funny i found myself smiling or giggling or crying to myself when i read it you know. im on to the next book tmr! and dale say i will cry like shit. -.-" great. hahaha i read twilight and i cried and ling was like O_0. cos she was about to ask me a chinese question. lol. and yst was bra day with ling. hahahahha :D and i jus cut my hair, and everyone say i kiddy. and im a KINDERGARDEN KID. X( hmph. and so annoying, crystal is so happy ling or ernest or sm1 say i look like apple. walao. -.-" hahaha...

ohhh i watched tim burton's corpse bride yst night with my papa on channel 5. [dunno why but i dun feel like saying daddy today. hmm. its papa day! :D] :D it was so nice, such a beautiful cartoon! i, well, cried at the end again -.-" but it was rly touching, it was so heart wrenching to see the kind hearted corpse bride allow the one she love to go with his actual bride to be. This is what true love is, isnt it? so beautifully portrayed in a cartoon... its amazing. :) everybody go---- AWWWWW. (: nothing's better than a good love story, even if its cartoon. (:

yay yay yay im PROMOTED! :D im very very happy. chip and dale is still chip and dale! :) we shall go out soon after pw k my dear dale. :D before u go overseas! :) hehehehhehhh. but, i believe some things are unfair. let me explain.

i always believe in hard work, after i came to my senses in sec 4. its always better to be late than never, and hence im in AJC. so i put in as much as i can, and i do every single piece of hw [yes, zomg, can you believe it i dont do tt in sec sch] this yr. really. cross my heart. only once or twice when im rly busy that i go past the deadline- but i still hand in and apologize. anyway the point is, i dont think its fair this time round, cos ppl who shld promote din and...vice versa.

i think ppl should reap what they sow, and get what they SHOULD get, what they deserve. It pains me to see sm ppl fail. :( and it angers me too. me, ling and chang bitched like mad yst. as in rly rly like mad. i was very pissed actually. :( it feels odd, sad, angry and hurt in a certain way although im safe alrdy. maybe thats what i am, always the emotional creature. but im rly appalled by all these, i dont think they deserve it. i cant stand it anymore. :( X( X( X( i rly tried alrdy to hold back. just unleashed my anguish and annoyance. :(

nonetheless.

crys, twin, be strong. choose a path that is right for you; rethink this year. are you sure u wan to go poly? or do you want to retain? are u sure jc is for you? or is another path better? will you be VERY sure you can pass and do well in ur A levels? if you promote, will you choose to promote and put in quadruple effort, or just retain and build on your foundation? please think it through; i'll be here if you guys need me. <3

ciao, off i go. PW beckons.

-jinghui-

it feels like eons.

2008-10-12T20:51:00.003+08:00

why does time seem to pass so damn slowly these few days? :\ like huh, only 3 days have passed since i gt my results? -.-" sighs. and im SO sick of PW and chinese. i will be really contented if i get B for both, cos i never wanna go thru this agony again. im so sick of doing this two subs like, everyday. gosh. sighs. and wth if I and R. i dont have any darn ideas anymore lah. :(

baby i wish you're okay. dont overwork okay? :( i know your course is damn tiring but hang in there all right? double degree's like that. i'll give you endless supply of sweets, choco, gummies, food! (: so tt when u study u can eat. hehehehhh. and after your exams we'll go to the zoo! and theme park! (: okay? i'm here for you darling, and i promise i wont drag u shopping for these 2 mths. (: hahaha. we'll get through these 6 years together dear; i know we can and we will. i'll stick by you through thick and thin, through all these tough times. :) tell me you will too! :D i love you. <3

back to I&R. :(

-jinghui-

sighs.

2008-10-09T18:12:00.003+08:00

okay im so tired now. im so annoyed blogger cant post photos again. ugh.

anyway. these few days were pretty mundane. except today. for back promos result. sighs, passed all H1, but only pass one H2. :( means i fail 2 H2. mans. im so hoping they change the criteria, and let me promote. sighs. and i did v badly for econs again. i was expecting like 36, but i got 28. i totally broke down. sighs.

the only damn surprising subject is lit. i mean zomg i nvr scored 17 for an essay before, let alone for IOW! 0_o mans. oh well. i jus hope i can promote luh. :\ hope they have advance promotion/ conditional promotion. :( its gonna be niggling at the back of my mind until i know whether i can promote not.

yesterday had training again. it was totally crappy. i mean everyone had dizzy spells, and kim had t go t the sick bay. i hope you're okay alrdy kim. sighs. seriously. training takes up too much of my time. :( should i, or should i not....? i mean. im not even happy. i'm gonna think abt it and ask darling.

im so addicted to sally's spa! its a game. which i complete in 2 days. -.-" diner dash i gt one level cant pass and im very tired alrdy cos i finished sally's spa. so decided nt to play le. play another day. (: im bored with FB and neopets alrdy, i figured.

another boring day before i can see darling. i really miss you :( sighs. crap, why is this week such a long week? :( and pw is seriously killing me. i even dreamt of pw okay. -.-" but i think op is funny. lol. tzuling and ernest always do funny hand gestures hahahahhah. (:

all right. off i go i feel tired and lazy.

-jinghui-